The Sirius Disclosure Part I

Don’t you hate it when a writer keeps putting themselves in their own stories? They make themselves all powerful, all knowing, all seeing, suave cool-guy James Bond types. I’m looking at you Ian Fleming. Except Ian Fleming actually was a spy, and actually did know more than a little about the things he wrote about. I, too, know more than a little about the things I will write about here. I’m going to be up front with you. This is a story about me. This is a story about my life. This is a story about the world we actually live in. You don’t have to believe it, and in fact, you probably shouldn’t. You should probably close the book right now, turn off the kindle, close the browser window. You probably should, but you won’t. You won’t because curiosity is a powerful thing. You need to hear what I am going to tell you. This is a process that has been long in the making since the foundations of the Earth itself.

Meet Jack. Jack is me, or some pseudo-me that I have created in order to tell this modern fairytale to you. Jack Rosenkreutz was a blessed son to a loving mother and a powerfully imposing father. Jack’s father Carl worked in Special Access Programs for the American Government. He was a brilliant aeronautical engineer with Lockheed-Martin. He worked on reconnaisance satellites for the NRO, the National Reconnaisance Office, one of the least well known of the secret intelligence agencies of the US Government. Jack remembers his childhood fondly, despite all the memories of military intelligence men in Air Force and Naval uniforms coming on to the property in a small town in rural Nevada County, California. Despite the helicopters and the lockdown that came when daddy brought home a little too much of the truth.

“What do they want?” little Jack asked, huddled beneath the kitchen table with his mother, Dawn, and his sister Emily. The sound of the helicopters was deafening. The dogs barked helplessly, their little chests beating with anxiety.

“They’re coming to take your daddy away for a little while, Jack,” cooed Dawn in a soothing way, despite her grief-stricken appearance, “He’ll be back sometime soon. They just have to test him and find out if he’s lying about…anything.”

“Are they going to hurt him?” asked little Emily.

“No one is going to hurt your Dad. He just has to go away for a little while.”

“But why?”

“DON’T ASK ME! I’m the last one to know, god forbid his wife should have any part in his decisions. It’s all TOP SECRET! It’s bullshit.”

Jack and Emily looked at eachother, shocked to hear their mother speak in such a tone. They were unused to violent outbursts. For the most part, their home life was quiet and well-maintained. They lived a quiet life in a rural community. Jack and Emily went to school every day, waiting for the bus by the big naval anchor at the end of the street. It was a normal childhood, except when it was not.

Jack believed in Aliens. Jack believed in Ghosts. Jack believed in Gnomes and Faeries. In the forest, he would see the old trolls stumbling through the green mountain misery that grew all over the hillside. The moss on the trees was transformed from greenery to a kind of living fairy dust. Jack’s head became heavy and thick with the pollen and pheremones of the trees. Fairies would dance across the walls, through the dust in the sun beams. Gnomes would steal kitchen utensils and return them the next day on the doorstep with hastily scribbled apologies. These things were all real, at least in Jack’s mind, and the mind is a powerful thing.

Jack became known for his sensational storytelling. His family would sit around the old wood stove and laugh as he regaled them with tales of fairies and goblins and ghosts, kings and kingdoms long past. Jack’s imagination was a powerful thing, capable of conjuring many mysteries in to existence at any time. He loved to roam and play in the lands of his imagination. He would build his Lego kingdoms and cardboard thrones. He would make himself emperor of humanity, a benevolent dictator who would be kind and generous and would care for the poor and weak. He would feed the hungry and clothe the naked. He would heal all wounds of the past wars of human strife and suffering.

Jack became a monarch in his own mind. An emperor destined to rule, like Marcus Aurelius whose Meditations he read at night before going to sleep. A gift from his loving grandfather. It would shock you to know how young this man Jack was at this time. He was hardly out of kindergarten. Yet he was unique, deep down, because he learned a powerful lesson early in his life: you can learn from the mistakes of others, before you make them yourself.
Carl and Dawn would fight sometimes. They would yell and scream and turn red and blue. Carl would threaten to kill himself, and Dawn would tell him to just do it already. Then they would tumble down together in to the bedsheets in a throbbing mass of emotional outpouring, thrusting and seeking and guiding and reaching for the answers in the physical that could not be found in argument. This particular time the argument had been regarding a young girl that Carl had been seeing on the side. She was youthful and gorgeous and desperate for the attention of an older man. Carl was a lonely man, because of his work. He found in young Lilith solace.

Yes, Carl had his family. He had Dawn, Emily, and Jack. He had his house and his dogs and cats. He even had a huge radio tower behind his home so he could talk to people on ham radio. Another cure for loneliness. Why was Carl so lonely, with all of this, you might ask yourselves. It is because Carl knew a great secret. This secret would change human society in a profound way that no one could have foreseen. This was the secret of the hidden identity of mankind, and our place in the Cosmos. This was a secret kept expressly by the power of the Galactic Convention of Earth in 1956.

It’s a hard thing to have to tell you this, but your life is a lie. Your world is a lie. Your civilization is a lie. It is a fabrication of the Powers That Be so that you would not revolt, so that you would not destroy yourselves. Upon the detonation of the atom bomb at the end of World War II, a great signal was sent off through the Cosmos. Humanity is trying to kill itself! Intervention was deemed necessary, and even brutal force would be used if necessary to keep humanity from destroying our garden world and ourselves. Luckily, we didn’t require the brutality.

Humans are easy to please. Give them rich food, heady drink, and powerful orgasms, and they will be your friend forever. The extraterrestrials knew this, and so we see the blossoming of our media in the latter half of the 20th century on in to the 21st. Internet pornography is a control mechanism. Netflix, Hulu, amazon prime. They’re all control mechanisms. They control you, the consumer, so that you are productive and happy and harmless. This is so we can keep our eyes on the hand the magician wants us to see, while his other hand works around the back, and you get:

Flowers. Flowers for everyone! Flowers for the universe. Let all the universe be filled with the gems and jewels and treasures of all the 10,000 chiliocosms. The Wheel of Dharma turns, and humanity occupies but a small place upon its faces. We are not a civilization grown from the ground up by random evolutionary chance, but one created and implanted on the ovum of the Earth by powers far greater than ourselves. The civilizations that put us here have been around for billions of years. Billions. Imagine that. They are so far in advance of us, spiritually, technologically, culturally, that we can’t even imagine. Yet, they lift us up. Why?

Procreation. We are their offspring. We are the Children of God. Who is God? God is the all-consciousness of that great galactic empire that spawned us. There sits an emperor on a throne in the celestial throne room orbiting around the twin stars of Sirius, called Kolob in the Semitic tongues meaning “Dog.” Dog God get it? It’s a funny joke. God likes jokes. Anyway, from that throne He governs the universe. Sound hard to believe? Sure. You don’t need to believe it. It isn’t important whether you believe or not. What is important is that you understand that the world you live in is a construction of a higher power, that He loves us and cares for us, and that our well-being as human beings is his never-ending goal.

So you see why the atomic bomb worried them so. That’s when they took the power back. Remember the Roswell crash? 1947. Ever wonder where fiber optic technology came from? According to Carl, we have Heavenly Father to thank for the gift of the crashed saucer at Roswell. The Alien Reproduction Vehicles, made by Lockheed-Martin, the US military, and dear Carl, now comprise more than 90% of the actual shadow military complex. Guess you didn’t think we had a star fleet, did ya, kid?

Well, it gets better. Or worse. Depends how you want to see it.

Science Fiction and the Legacy of Philip K. Dick

Science Fiction and the Legacy of Philip K. Dick

     Philip K. Dick was the greatest science fiction author of all time. I assert this because he was endlessly inventive at creating entire new worlds of concepts and ideas within his mind, projecting them in to world around him and overlaying them with “normal” reality until it became hard to discern where his fiction ended and the so-called “real man” began. This unique creative talent of superimposing the imaginary upon the real for the sake of the creation of art is something I am very familiar with, for I, too, am gifted with this talent. Like Brother Philip, I am also a science fiction writer, though I have not yet published any of my works. That is soon to change.

     I have been polishing my writing skills for years, working on small projects here and there, reading a great deal of fiction and non-fiction, studying the craft of writing, and collecting life experiences to draw upon as an aspiring creative intellectual. Had I brought my talents to bear prematurely, I would have rendered forth relatively naive works of fiction without the real depth of character of one who has experienced much in the world. I have been watching, waiting, studying, meditating, until the time was right to take up the pen and join the ranks of the writers of wishful whimsies, the novelists of new knowledge, and the pretentious prattle-ons of posterity. Like Hesse’s Siddhartha, I had not many skills but to think, to wait, and to fast.

     The time has come, it appears, to come out of the closet. I’ll admit it: I’m an aspiring science fiction writer. What does an aspiring science fiction writer do, you might ask? Well, we ponder about the world, and superimpose our imaginations upon it to see if new concepts and discoveries can be made. We gaze at all the ridiculous foolishness and solemn wisdom of the world alike, and being no respecter of persons, we try to fit old ideas together in new ways, in an effort to create new concepts. If we are supremely blessed, and talented, and maybe a little bit lucky, then we may come to find our ideas come to reflect and reveal new truths about the cosmos and the way things interact. If we are not, then we are merely run-of-the-mill fools, toiling on about our keyboards with our mad imaginings drifting scrawls across all the coffee-stained napkins in the local coffee shop.

     Either way, we may come off as sacrilegious, kooky, and frankly, a little bit weird. Or more than a little. That’s ok, though. The world needs the science fiction writer. The world needs the science fiction writer because the science fiction writer is the portender of the future. He or she feels out the currents of the popular consciousness, and follow their threads to their logical ends. He portends of things to come, and warns of what may happen if humanity may not change her ways. She is a fickle character, outlandish and perhaps even a little uncouth, but that is all for the good. It takes a mind capable of looking at all angles, no matter how ridiculous, to project new dimensions of thought in to our reality. We owe science fiction writers a great debt of thanks for their service.

     I am not yet worthy to count myself among them, as I have not yet published my major works, but they are coming, and soon. The days of my silence are over. I have digested long enough, and now it is time to create. I thank all of you for your patience and forbearance in dealing with my ramblings these past several weeks. I know it must have been confusing to you, to see someone you know seem to cry out like a stark raving lunatic. Fear not, dear reader, for I am not a messianic figure, nor a prophet, nor a cultist. I am simply a writer. Thank you for your understanding in these latter days. May all the love and light of God be upon you. Amen.

Crazy Wisdom and the Nature of Truth

Crazy Wisdom and the Nature of Truth

     When a deer partakes of the fruit of a tree, it does so as a part of a divine cycle. It takes in the sweet fruit as nourishment and sustenance, but it also takes in the seeds of that fruit. It gives a great gift to the tree, as the tree has given a great gift unto it, by carrying forth the seeds of its fruit in to the world within the bowels of the deer. The deer then passes the seeds, encased in all the digestive materials of the other things that the deer has partaken. This is a beautiful and sacred process.

     I have recently published an article which has brought great worry to the hearts of my friends and family. I am writing this now to try to help set their hearts at ease. I have a strong spiritual practice. I have recently made great strides forward in my spiritual practice by releasing energies from past traumas and conquering past aversions and lusts both. I have been able to partake of the fruit of a sacred tree prepared by our Heavenly Father from the beginning of the world. Much like the noble deer, the fruit of this tree is both blessing to me, and I to it. This fruit nourishes me and sustains me, but it asks for my service in return.

     You see, not all of what I have written is precisely true. Not all of it is precisely false either. It contains the seeds of this fruit of which I have partaken, but it is not itself the fruit. It is a digestive encasing of consisting of all the materials I have taken in over the years, which I have passed back to the Earth as a protective vehicle for the seed of the fruit which I have partaken. I am not special in doing so, nor do I claim some kind of prophetic appointment. I am not appointed to be a prophet or seer. I am a humble servant of God, a man of quiet meditation and earnest prayer.

     I return unto the world the seed of the fruit of that great Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, so that the seed may find fertile ground and take root again within the hearts, minds, and spirits of others. I am merely taking part in the great cycle. I am turning the Wheel of Dharma, as Buddha did. I am stirring the pot, that the stew may not stagnate and burn, but that it may continue to simmer in prosperity, prepared with love and affection from the beginning of time by our great Heavenly Father.

     In doing this, I follow in the tradition of many great men before me: Buddha, Jesus Christ, Joseph Smith, and Chogyam Trungpa, just to name a few. These men are all much greater than me, but each one of them was a great teacher of the world, and each one of them had one thing in common: the conveying of truth through parables. Each one of them was also called crazy by some of the people of his time, but each one of them persevered in turning the great Wheel of Dharma, and providing energy and leavening to the great common consciousness of all mankind. I invite you to look up Chogyam Trungpa and his Crazy Wisdom, for I can not do this great man justice, but even so let us take a brief look at him.

     Chogyam Trungpa lived in the the middle of the 20th century as the recipient of two great lineages of Tibetan Buddhism. Both the Nyingma and the Kagyu schools were held by this master, who was called both a tulku (a reincarnated sage) and a terton (a revealer of sacred treasures). Chogyam Trungpa coined a phrase called “crazy wisdom,” for you see, despite his clear lineages in the Tibetan Buddhist faith and his great work of bringing Tibetan Buddhism and Vajrayana teachings to the West, he was a controversial and divisive figure. He drank like a fish, cursed like a sailor, and slept with many, many women (and some claim men as well). This is not the image that a traditional Buddhist monk is supposed to convey.

     Even so, he was by all accounts an extremely wise man, though erratic and prone to sudden, inexplicable outbursts that his companions found difficult to process and understand. He was the recipient of deep wisdom and knowledge from a long tradition of wise and knowledgeable students of the grand universal truths of the Dharma. He processed these truths, and returned them to the western world in a vehicle and presentation that appeared quite insane and out of step with his Eastern peers, but which was uniquely suited to the Western mind and predilections. Chogyam Trungpa taught profoundly needed truth to a profoundly sick society, and in so doing, he provided many great blessings to the world.

     Now, am I claiming to be as worthy and wise a man as the majestic Chogyam Trungpa? No. But, I have learned from him much about human beings and how they accept and process knowledge. I have learned from him much about the memetic common consciousness of all mankind. I have taken his teachings and re-purposed them for my own spiritual quest. What I say is not precisely true or precisely false, and is not intended to be taken as truth in itself. It is merely a signpost, an indicator. It directs the seeker toward truth by stirring them to begin asking the right questions. What I say is parable. It is part fiction and part wisdom. Some of it is the seed of the fruit of our Heavenly Father’s divine tree. Most of it is waste matter encasing that seed to protect it, fertilize it, and provide a vehicle for it as it passes again out in to the world.

     I hope this has been an edifying clarification for you. I hope this has done something to assuage your worries and fears about what I am saying. I love each and every one of you, and I appreciate your work and care for me, and for your flocks, and the people to whom you are responsible in this life and in the life to come. Thank you for your concern and for your interest. I hope this will help you open your minds a little to what I am doing. I love you. Love and light to you, always, brothers and sisters. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.

Duality and the Coming Harmonization (Rescinded)

Rescinded.

Due to numerous complaints about the controversial nature of this work, I have decided to rescind it from this site because the backlash has negatively affected my work and personal life. I apologize to my readers, to whom I feel I owe a promise of integrity as a writer, for this act of self-censorship which I personally find abhorrent, but I am attempting to correct the negative consequences that have come about from misunderstandings regarding the nature of this work and its meaning.  To avoid further harm, I have removed it.

How Mozzarella Saved My Life

     I hated cheese. As a young man, I had a strange thing happen to me. I suddenly found one day that trying to eat cheese would make me gag and wretch. I don’t know what initially caused this symptom, but what I do know is the vast effect a small thing can have on a much larger thing. Not eating cheese seemed like a very small thing to me at the time, but it caused great, disastrous ripples throughout my life. I find the whole thing somewhat humorous, you must admit, to think that eating cheese could be the difference between saving a universe of people or causing them to perish in the worst ways. An entire universe held in the balance of one thing, one simple little thing. Like atlas with the world on his shoulders, you can imagine the world placed on a plate holding a little stick of mozzarella. You see, all things are connected. Like a great tapestry, our lives are made up of many, many threads. One little thread pulled in the wrong way can cause a great rippling effect across the entire piece. In my life, cheese became a great aversion. It became a character trait. It became my normal world to reject this one part of the cosmos, and in so doing, I caused chaos in the divine order of things. This one little thing, like the great butterfly effect of Poincare, could throw a divinely inspired system out of balance.

      I took it as not really a big deal. It was just one little thing that I didn’t like. Why should anyone care? I just didn’t eat cheese. They don’t have to “get it.” I just won’t do it. I just won’t eat cheese. A great psychological trick had been set upon me. It might puzzle you to find this out, but mice don’t like cheese. We give it to them to test them, to try them out, and they eat it not because they like it but because its what we give to them for these great tests. The cheese shows the worth of the mouse. When a mouse nibbles on cheese, it is tasting the soured sins of all the horiffic things mankind has done in the name of science. The mice do it because they love us. They know it is worth it in the end to please us, because we can in turn bear great fruits for them. We humans as a people are very self-centered, but what we don’t realize when we sit like kings at the top of the food chain is how the great chain affects us in our lives.

      All things are connected. There is nothing in this universe that exists alone without any other force acting upon it. Even the farthest reaches of space have been touched by the light of our stars across the eternities. There is nothing anywhere that is unconnected. All the universe is one great network. As the Hindus put it, Indra’s net is made up of many beads, each reflecting the light of all the others throughout the cosmos. This is a wondrous work of the divine nature of our universe. All things, all space, all time is connected and unified as one. Yet, here we are. Expressed as many. Behold, the wondrous infinite glory of our divine cosmos and creator. We both create ourselves and we are ourselves. Throughout time and eternity, we have existed as many intelligences drifting in a vast network of space and time, each one of us as indivdual beads in the great net of existence, reflecting all other beads within ourselves. Gods and Goddessess have been called in to being by this vast net. All the things you know or you think you know exists there, on this one great network, the mental network of the universe. With all things continuing as they should, reflected in one another, the world begins to rotate as a beautiful and peaceful place.

      In this holographic construction of the universe, with each point reflecting the others, a great many patterns and things can and do occur. Our history is filled with times of triumph, and times of sin, times of great piety, and times of deplorable inhumanity. How peacefully we can co-exist depends on a great vibratory principle, where harmonies clash if they become dissonant with one another. However, we have a process of harmonizing ourselves and this Earth in to a great cosmic orchestra, each reflecting one another, we can grow and be reborn through the workings and great mysteries of time and with the great mercy and wisdom our great Lord. For many years, this great orchestra was out of tune. As if troubled by a great wound, harmony could not be found upon the Earth for a long period of time. Men were dying in the great wars of petty lords and merchant kingdoms, but they could not be brought out of the Earth again, resurrected from their graves by the grace and glory of God. A time of great trial was placed upon the kingdom of men, for people once knew they could rise again after death and that there was nothing to worry about, and so they had great wars and orgies and parties of all varieties, delighting in their temporary bodies, knowing that when consequences might come about, that they would be softened by the mercies of our great Lord, and they would rise again the next day, refreshed and anew, by the gift and glory of God.

     But a wrench was thrown in the works when a young child declared he would no longer eat cheese. Guardians would come and try to guide him, asking him to simply live with it, it wasn’t a big deal. It’s just cheese. But cheese made him wretch and he despised it. So, he simply would not eat it, he declared. That would be fine, you see, if he had had a lick of sense about his tiny brain. Except it wasn’t the cheese. It was where the cheese comes from. What this young man didn’t know, didn’t understand, was the great process of making cheese, and what a gift it is from animal life to human life. The process of dairy-making and cow-breeding is a complicated one, and one that I shan’t delve too deeply. Suffice to say that the process involves much more than the curdling of milk, but that it involves the light from the sun come down upon the Earth, the rain upon the fields, the nourishment of the grasses, the cows that feed on the grass, the love of the cows for one another, their prosperity in bearing forth new calves, and then feeding those calves with their great udders filled with milk. From these milk udders that a mother feeds her offspring we can see the importance of nourishment from the divine source. We humans prize our intellect above all others, but the noble cow truly is a holy thing.

     We care for the cows as they come to pasture, and take from them some of their milk in return for providing them with green fields and plentiful livelihoods with which they could live and raise a family upon. We then come to the process of making cheese by roundabout way through pasteurization. Louis Pasteur was a genius of a man when he figured out the process necessary to cleanse milk of harmful microbes. These microbes may or may not have been a beneficient contributor to the cheeses themselves, though certainly some cheeses like my most dreaded Roquefort cheese or France’s Bleu Cheese contained microbes which added character and variety to their flavor. What was certain, though, is that these microbes were a great burden on the people in the form of dysentery and cholera epidemics which plagued the world. Pasteurization helped to cure these plagues, and soothe the bowels of the people.

     And so we arrive at last by roundabout way with much weightier portent to my original point: I hated cheese. It would make me wretch and gag and grow dizzy and confused of my surroundings. I would run from my Sister Emma when she had cheese on her breath around the house. I didn’t understand the point of cheese in this nature’s marevelous miracle. Mice seemed to like cheese, and we would use it to set traps around the house, hoping that the mice would eat it and die. I did not like dead mice. I like mice. They are kind and friendly creatures once you get to know them, and there is no need for the great sanctimonious human being to kill them. They deserve our mercy and compliments, for you see, they are our brethren like all others throughout the animal kingdom. They serve us in many ways that we humans know not. They sacrifice themselves to science and discovery in the hope of contributing for the greater whole. There is no more selfless being than the common laboratory mouse.

     My great distaste and aversion to cheese may not be easily explainable, but its effects are easily calculatable and they are dire. For you see, in a healthy human, one must reflect every other human within themselves. In my selfish perversion of not liking cheese I grew to be distrustful of the people around me. I believed that my father and other father figures throughout my life like my uncle Corky were trying to poison me with cheese. They knew I didn’t like it, but they would always try to slip it in to any meal we ate as a family. Our Thanksgivings were very tense over this little issue of a little boy not wishing to eat cheese. This selfish little boy would not hear what others wanted from him because he knew it was just cheese. What had that to do with them if he didn’t like it? It made him gag and feel sick on the toilet. He should be allowed to choose what his palate had a flavor for, should he not? He had every right as a child of God to do with his free will as he saw fit, and if he saw fit not to eat cheese, then this sacrilege should just be tolerated, he felt. Foolish little boy. Little did he know that all things are connected, and that all things must come to their fruition in due time.

     So it was with me. I did not believe I was doing any harm to anyone, but somehow in doing this one little thing, it was as though I had let one domino fall in a great construction. I did not realize how this would affect me and my presence among other people. Like a kindly remembered warthog from the Lion King, I began to be cursed with flatulence like no other. Go ahead and laugh. Laugh all you like. It is pretty funny if you think about it. I didn’t eat cheese, and because I didn’t eat cheese I distrusted others, and the benefits of a healthy bowel were taken away from me.

     Like the great Martin Luther and Adolf Hitler, I, too, have had my hard times sitting upon the ivory throne. Flatulence and an unhealthy bowel go hand in hand. It is as disgusting as you like, so you may wish to refrain from letting your little children read this far. My father died upon the ivory throne, sitting on a toilet, like the great King himself, Elvis Presley. This issue has been left unspeakable throughout our history as something that should not be allowed in polite conversation, but it is precisely this issue in which we can discern the origins of the old proper greeting “how do you do?” and look back with astonished wonder at the vast history of bowel problems that human history has brought us.

     People did not like to be around me. When I farted, it was like a great gust of wind, bringing in foul things from ancient memories, shaking the trees with the hideous nature of the dark and hidden things rotting beneath the earth. I myself did not realize my flatulence was an issue. To me my farts would bring back the memory of whatever meal I had eaten that day, but for others it was a disgusting tyranny wrought upon their nostrils by a devilish man. They would not believe me if I told them I didn’t smell anything rotten or sour in the air.

     It is alright to talk about these things now because I have come to terms with them. I have begun eating cheese. Not because I like the taste or the smell or the texture, but simply for the effect it has on the flora of my bowel. I have conquered, as Buddha did, the greatest enemy of all: our own aversion and unwillingness to put up with something necessary but dreadful. A great cleansing process was begun, the details I would be too polite to explicate, and you should be too polite to ask. Suffice to say that a great healing work has taken root in me, and a wound upon the history of our people can finally begin to be healed. Through the curing of the flora of my bowels, I restored kindness and plenty to the world, as all things are connected, and as all people desire to find happiness. The greatest suffering of all is often caused by our distaste or almost phobic fear of something or other. Whatever we find most distasteful, we should indulge in, at least once in a while, so that we can have proper balance in all things. If we recognize within ourselves the thing we despise most in the world around us, we can cure it by taking part in it. A paradox to be sure, or a great conundrum. This conundrum has caused me to rebalance all things to their rightful place in my life. I have restored all beings to their fruitful natures. I have conquered all, and yet greater works than these shall ye do. You who read this, conquer thyself. Conquer thy aversions. Know your weaknesses so that they may be made strengths. Improve yourselves because that’s what God would have us do, our great creator, sitting on an ivory throne. Imagine that. Quite funny, if you catch my drift.

The Tetragrammaton and the Geometry of Genesis

     Below is a paper I wrote in university, at the age of 18 in 2008. Though some points in it I have been able to clarify to fuller lucidity than is presented in this paper, and some parts are a little incorrect, I want to share this paper with you now intact, as it was, as an insight in to the mind of the young Lex White, a freshman at the University of Nevada, Reno, studying Archaeology and History, with minors in Medieval and Renaissance Studies and Religious Studies:

Research Paper First Draft
By Alexander White
Eng 102.012
     It is deeply human to yearn for the knowledge of our creation, to wish to know the forces, processes, and powers by which our universe took shape. Both sciences and religions alike spring up around this most fundamental goal of understanding who we are and our place in the universe, often coming to vastly different conclusions. With such diverse and seemingly irreconcilable differences, I, like many others, came to doubt that the views of religions and sciences could ever be brought in to line with one another, since it is even difficult to bring their views in to line with themselves. Despite my doubts, I have always had a small voice that would tell me that a conclusion reached by religion or by science alone, without the presence of the other, could never be a fully satisfying one. As time went on and my studies in to both religion and science intensified, what I once saw as irreconcilable differences began to appear, well… not so irreconcilable after all, and so it became my pursuit to explain what it was I was just starting to see. The logical beginning point was, of course, the beginning, and thus:
      “In the beginning, God created Heaven and the Earth.” This familiar first line of Genesis is one that is often and rather easily discarded as having no scientific value whatsoever. But, as we shall soon see, the creation stories of the book of Genesis clearly follow a numerical order and seem to imply a series of rather simple geometric progressions that we can even find at the base of religious architecture, symbolism, and tradition. And so, intrigued, I ask: are these progressions and the stories themselves metaphors that can somehow be related to modern scientific views of the creation of the universe?
     Though a complex question that is difficult to quickly explain, by breaking it down in to its logical steps it should prove relatively simple to explore. Perhaps the most important thing to keep in mind before going further is that we are dealing with biblical verses. The fact is that for most of us, our biblical learning, if existent at all, is based on the ideas within any of several popular translations of the
Bible, which are not necessarily in line with the original Hebrew or Aramaic texts, and so it is important for us to interpret Genesis with the original linguistic context intact. Another important note is that because the cultural root of the Book of Genesis lies in Judaism, I have chosen to analyze it through the lens of Jewish tradition, which can result in vastly different readings of Genesis than those of many modern Christians.
     Throughout Genesis, the word translated as God is Elohim, which is, in fact, not a word traditionally used to describe the concept of God in its entirety. While it is a “name of God,” the names of God are used, in Judaism, to understand only one facet of the Divine Nature. Thus, Elohim (notably a plural word) is a term used to describe the forces of creation, almost always referring to the power of division and definition as they act upon the universe, and not God as a whole (which is usually referred to as Ain Sof, translating as “the Infinite”). With this piece of knowledge we can already begin rethinking the first line of Genesis, which we can more conceptually translate as, “In the beginning, through the forces of creation (Elohim) were separated Heaven and the Earth.”
     It is here that roots of this numerical sequence lie. First, Genesis begins with the concept of zero, a blank page, full of infinite potential and energy: “In the beginning.” Zero is the place before action, before time, before sequence and space, the place that we can only conceptually understand, and can be thought of as the space that existed prior to the big bang. This primordial chaos is described in many different ways in many different places, and it is usually simply acknowledged as being simply beyond human understanding to define or intellectualize, though I suppose you could try, if you were looking for quite a headache.
     From this space of infinite potential, comes the spark of creation, Elohim, one: “In the beginning, God.” This would be the point that existed prior to the big bang, the very beginning of formation. At this time, in the big bang theory, the entire universe existed at one point, as of yet undefined, but still
representing the absolute potential of definition. Suitably, by employing the analogy of zero as the blank sheet, this number one would be a simple point or circle on that sheet (figure 1). It isn’t really important whether we use a point or a circle, because at this point there is simply no concept of space or distance, and so the two figures are for all intents and purposes identical.
figure 1

     Following a natural numerical order, we arrive at two, completing the first line of Genesis, “In the beginning, God created Heaven and the Earth.” This number two is represented by Heaven and the Earth. At first, this sounds rather silly, as the creation of Earth and the sky can’t have come until much later if we are following a logical linear progression. But as one of the later steps in the creation of Genesis is the creation of the Firmament (of stars) we find that these concepts are wider than one might originally infer from the translation. Rather than being the earth and sky, Earth and Heaven represent being and non-being, respectively. If everything is one, then what must happen before creation? There must be a concept of space, of is and is not, before any particular thing is created. At this stage, the roots of the expansion of the big bang appear in the ability of this single point to begin to divide itself. Here is the first division, the beginning of separation, but still lacking in any particular form whatsoever. At this point, we merely have these two formless halves of one single whole and so the next line of Genesis follows: “And the Earth was without form, and void…”
     We can represent this stage by the addition of a second point, or circle. These two points logically make a line, but it is interesting to note that if we draw two circles, each having its center at one of the two points, and the outer edge of its circumference at the opposite point, we have created the religiously significant and prolific geometric figure known as vesica piscis (figure 2). With the addition of a single other point at either of the intersections of the two circles, we can create a perfectly equilateral triangle (figure 3). This additional point is the first concept of real expansion and space, as with the creation of a triangle we have the simplest of polygons, thus the creation of dimension.
figure 2

figure 3

     Genesis continues: “And God said, Let there be Light.” Just as Heaven and Earth are representative symbols of something greater than simply the planet we live on and the space around it, the concept of light is not merely the concept of light, but the more fundamental concept of energy. In this case, light is poetically symbolic of more than simply energy, but also of the bright “explosion” of creative expansion. But why is the concept of energy the beginning of dimension? The two forces of Heaven and Earth exist in perfect balance with one another on their own (something that we can observe, by noting that things that exist do not simply stop existing, but merely change forms, and that the space that exists between things does not simply become new things), and so need a third force to act as a catalyst, to actuate creation and set things in to motion. Simply by observing what is around us, we can see that this great actuator of the universe is energy.
     Genesis continues soon after with the line, “and God divided the light from the darkness,” showing the differentiation between matter and energy. As energy and matter become separate, the necessary things for physical creation are suddenly available, providing the most basic components of our universe. With the addition of energy to the unified point of being and non-being, there comes the process of sudden expansion as matter is suddenly forced in to motion, pushing outward and expanding outward, mimicked exactly by its counterpart, space.
     And as we have the beginning of the creation of the physical universe, Genesis continues, expanding on the advent of light and darkness: “And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.” At this point in the discussion, it seems strange to even consider that this “day” being referenced is at all analogous to a rotation of the planet Earth. At this point in creation, we don’t even have stars! How can there be night and day? In the same manner as we considered the metaphorical meaning of the text before, it is important for us to regard this cycle of day and night in a similar manner. The day that is
mentioned can have no bearing on what we would normally conceive as day; instead, it must represent an even more holistic idea: the idea that reality proceeds as a series of cycles.
     This cycle is encapsulated perfectly in the letters YHVH, traditionally thought of as another name of God, from which we get such names as Jehovah and Yahweh. However, this name of God is supposedly the very word spoken by God in order to create the universe, and thus has seen a great deal of controversy over its proper pronunciation (traditionally, written Hebrew uses no vowels). Many traditional Jews, however, hold that YHVH is, in truth, intended to be unpronounceable. Why is this inability to vocally articulate the word important? The letters of YHVH are pronounced by themselves as “yud,” “heh,” “vav”, and “heh.” Through a little contemplation on the sounds themselves, they begin to seem strangely familiar, and with a little time it becomes apparent why: “yud” is a beginning, with a heavy sound like a bang, or a sharp intake of air, whereas “heh” is the sound of exhalation, “vav” the sound of inhalation, finally concluding in “heh,” another exhalation. This “word” that created the universe represents the cycle of breathing, and therefore one of the most important principles of creation. Like the concepts we have found before it, the true value of YHVH is in its metaphorical value. The universe was created on the basis of the concept of coming and going, waxing and waning, life and death; this is a piece of philosophical wisdom shared by peoples and religions all over the world.
     Recalling our main progression, infinity was first gathered to a single point, and then expanded outward as a great exhalation, thus marking the first day. This exhalation cannot continue forever unchanged without forsaking this cyclical concept, and so next must come a returning, another inhalation, a settling of what has been expanded. Note that this does not mean that the universe must stop expanding, as the expansion itself is a constant growth, merely that what was already expanded cannot remain in the primordial state it began in. The settling of this stellar mass and energy in to stars and the first conglomerations of astronomical formation follow as this proto-matter begins to separate,
spread out, settle, and solidify in form. Thus we come to the next step of the creation of Genesis, “And God said, let there be a firmament.”
     This fourth point can be drawn in our figure at the midway point of the base of the equilateral triangle, separating it into two equal halves and creating, by modest rearrangement, a square, said to be the foundation of the universe (figure 4). Coincidentally, YHVH is four letters long, so it is possible to have each letter representing a corner of this square. Notable, while four letters long, YHVH is still only made up of three separate letters. Thus, the fourth point is not the addition of a new material for the universe to be built from but the creation of a sturdy foundation from the basic materials of space, matter, and energy. “And there was evening and there was morning, a second day,” continues Genesis, showing that this fourth point represents a whole cycle of creation rather than just a settling. It must be, then, a settling followed by a creative expansion, providing for the next cycle’s settling, and thus the next stage of creation.
figure 4

     This new cycle of settling comes in the form of planets, and other non-stellar celestial bodies. “And God said, Let the waters under the heaven be gathered together unto one place, and let the dry land appear.” Here we find the symbol of the waters, a recurring symbol throughout Genesis, and a rather complex concept that exists prior to even physical creation. Though there are several possibilities of what the waters refer to, with the most common and simplistic lying in its conception as literal seas, ranging to calling it some sort of metaphysical fabric that is utilized by God. It is at this particular verse, however, that it is possible to begin to find some clues as to what it may be referring to. Most particular of which is the metaphor of the receding of waters to create land; as this concept of waters is used very early on, in Genesis 1:2 (just after the creation of Heaven and Earth) as, “and the spirit of God hovered over the face of the waters,” it becomes a possibility that this term “waters” is used to refer to the primordial state of matter (which makes particular sense, because the waters “under the heaven,” or rather, existing within space, are gathered), which in this case would be infinitely malleable, like water, until it was “gathered” and made in to a solid form. This could very well be analogous, in our particular paradigm, to the astronomic process of the gathering of small rocks, dust, and gases to create planets.
This new stage of creation brings with it, of course, a fifth point to our figure. This addition, if placed directly above the center of the square, creates a pyramid, our first three-dimensional figure (figure 5). Notably, this one point addition to the square base, by nature of connection to each of the four corners, creates four individual triangles, showing, perhaps, the rapidly expanding complexity of creation. It has been said in traditional Judeo-Christian symbolism that five is the number of man. Though at this stage man has not yet been created, this tradition of religious symbolism tends to be full of references of purely numerological significance. Since this fifth point creates a three-dimensional object, and man perceives reality primarily in the three dimensions of space, it could be said that this is the level that the mind of man operates on. In addition to this consequence of dimensional perception, the fifth saying of God creates dry land, or as we have analyzed, planets. This is symbolic of the final “dimension” or physical space required for the creation of life (a planet, in this case) as well as symbolic of the completion of the physical continuum.
figure 5

     Before moving to the next two sets of numbers, it is necessary to skip ahead to gain a necessary perspective on the larger picture. At the end of this logical line is the number 10, which is geometrically represented by a figure known as the Tree of Life (figure 6). It is quite clear that the Tree of Life is made up by the connections between ten points; each of the ten points refers, as you may have noticed, to one of the “sayings” of God that led to the creation of something. Besides this, each of the ten points is connected to the others by 22 lines, which are each represented in the first chapter of Genesis by 22 other lines including God. This figure is often said to represent Elohim, and each of the ten points are traditionally named according to a particular aspect of creation. The Tree of Life is constructed
geometrically in a rather significant way: it is what is known as a five-dimensional hypercube (a penteract), an analog to the three-dimensional cube, but existing instead in five dimensions. A five-dimensional hypercube is a figure that has 32 vertices, creating 10 individual “hypercells” (or four-dimensional parts).
     So, if this is the final geometric form that we will come to, and we have only arrived at three dimensions so far, what are these final two dimensions? The fourth dimension is clearly time, from a scientific perspective. The fifth dimension is less clear, but in traditional Judaism it has been referred to as “spirit,” representing the spiritual continuum of such concepts as good and evil. Each of these dimensions is marked at either end, as a continuous axis, by the numerical pairs that are to follow: six-seven, and eight-nine. The individual connections that these numbers have to the text of Genesis, however, is a little less clear, and thus the explanations are a little more tenuous than those before, and serve more as a framework to further understanding rather than polished wholes.
     It could be said that actual time was irrelevant before life existed to provide progress with which to measure it by. Though there was sequence, there was not a substantial forward development that is necessary for the concept of time, especially given that the amount of time that existed prior to this stage is not even vaguely comprehensible. “And God said, Let the earth put forth grass, herb yielding seed, and fruit-tree bearing fruit after its kind, wherein is the seed thereof, upon the earth,” could thus represent the beginning of the axis of time, as it is the first developments of life, a process that is wholly bound by time. However, this line is also more obviously demonstrating the roots of life, which is a rather difficult concept to understand when we consider that the seventh point and counterpart to this sixth point is the creation of luminaries (the sun and moon), because the sun would be required for the creation of plants in the first place. This could be most obviously understood (within this paradigm) in one of two ways. Either the Bible is claiming that the creation of life happened prior to the creation of
our solar system (which has been scientifically theorized numerous times, but can be quite the logical leap in this case), or the creation of the luminaries and of plants both are much more symbolic steps than they are tangible sequences. The latter of which seems to be the most supported by the considerations made so far.
     “And God said, Let there be lights in the firmament of the heaven to divide the day from the night; and let them be for signs, and for seasons, and for days and years.” Here we see clearly the implication that the luminaries provide for the definition of time, giving us the grounds for considering the symbolism of this step. However, there is a strange inconsistency here: why are night and day separated again? We know that this was already done earlier in Genesis, but if we regard the earlier creation as the creation of cycles, and this creation as the literal creation of night and day (or the slightly more symbolic creation of specific time) then this line becomes clarified. The luminaries are the method by which ancient man told time, using both moon and sun to reckon days, months, years, and seasons. Since we can see the beginning of life as the beginning of the relevance of time, it is possible to understand the creation of the luminaries as the setting in motion of the cycles of the procession of time.
     Since we find the creation of time before the creation of creatures, I am willing to make the rather religiously controversial argument that time was a necessity to the creation of life, given the procession of events in Genesis, paving the way for the possibility of evolution as a biblically supported method of creation. (As a side note, it is also supported by the fact that evolution is reflective of the cycle of creation that has been laid down above, that is, beginning from a single spark and expanding in to uncountable variation.) “And God said, Let the waters swarm with swarms of living creatures, and let fowl fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven,” demonstrates life beginning in the water, which is strongly believed to be true by evolutionary biologists. Unfortunately for this snippet of
convenient congruence, it is followed directly by the creation of fowl, which is definitely not the order in which biologists believe the evolution of creatures proceeded.
     However, this step is also representative of the creation of the axis of “spirit” as referenced in later books of the bible. Since water-dwelling creatures are by our reckoning the “lowest” and birds that fly are similarly the “highest,” perhaps a continuum of two extremes is being formed by this verse, to be filled in by all things in between in the line and step of creation that follows: “And God said, Let the earth bring forth the living creature after its kind, cattle, and creeping thing, and beast of the earth after its kind.” As these creatures are created, we see both the spiritual middle ground filled in symbolically, as well as the evolutionary foundation for the creation of humankind laid down.
     Now that the stage has been set, the tenth point of creation comes as possibly the most interesting one: “And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness.” I was always, personally, baffled by the claim that humans could even be remotely made in the image of God. It violates my very understanding of God, that God could have a physical form to begin with. As it so happens, this is a view shared by the Jews who wrote Genesis, and thus is the key to this conundrum. As we recall, the word used in Genesis in the place of the concept of absolute God is Elohim, or the forces of creation, which is represented by the geometric figure the Tree of Life. Genesis continues: “And God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created them; male and female He created them.” By looking at the original Hebrew of this line, it becomes clear that God created mankind as a whole, with male and female created at the same time. An interesting pattern emerges in this line, as first we have one whole, mankind, which is then divided in to two, male and female, reflecting Elohim and Heaven and Earth at the beginning of Genesis. The next line continues this pattern by blessing humans and bidding them to be fruitful and multiply. This multiplication is not representative of only sexual reproduction, but the continuing of the cycle of one to ten within humans.
     The continuation of this cycle makes beginning to see the connection of humans and the image of Elohim as one in the same rather easy. A few other points of interest regarding the Tree of Life and Elohim exist, however. One of which is that the tree of life has 32 vertices. The human body has 31 pairs of nerves spreading in to the body from the spine, with a thirty-second nerve complex in the skull. Another of which is that humans have six major body parts (two arms, two legs, torso, and head), analog to the six “days” of creation, and a spirit, analog to the seventh, resting day. Thus, we can see mankind as a smaller reflection of the forces of creation as a whole, demonstrating the truth behind the geometrical figure of the Tree of Life: it is infinitely repeatable.
     It is said that the Tree of Life has its roots in the infinitely small, and has its branches stretching out to the infinitely large. This infinite repetition from small to large is what is known geometrically as a fractal pattern, a seemingly random and chaotic pattern that in truth has a much greater overlying order. These patterns form the basis for the branching of trees, the formation of clouds, the structure of snow flakes, blood vessels, crystals, and patterns in natural processes such as the flooding of the Nile river to the process of evolution. From such simplistic geometrical roots as the circle and triangle we come to such astounding variations in creation through the vast diversity of fractal geometry, and a most harmonious image of the world begins to appear. However, we must return to the original question: does Genesis imply these processes? From one point of view, we can say definitely yes, as they can be related to Genesis at all, and, if nothing else, Genesis was written based on the every-day interaction with these processes by common people. While the origins of Genesis may be more profound than this, it is very easy to be skeptical of such a thing.
     Regardless of the profundity of Genesis and whether or not attempts by the religious or the scientific to explain the origins of the universe and its laws ever succeed, the mere contemplation and consideration of these founding forms of the world we live in serves to expand us both mentally and
spiritually. Here, we have briefly examined some possible relations between scientific and religious conceptions of the creation of the universe, and while I have often been unsure of the total validity of the findings that are written about here, I have never been unsure of the value of seeking out such answers. If there is one thing that scientists and mystics alike can agree on, it is that the world is a profound and beautiful place. It is from the root of this singular thought that we can trace all manner of religious discourse and scientific inquiry. And so, it is human nature to seek this knowledge greater than ourselves, just as it is human nature for us to squabble over it, but we continue in the hopes that one day through our endeavors, only universal truth will remain.

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On the King Follett Sermon, the Eternal Round, and the Incomparable Genius of Joseph Smith

Some of the responses from my last article, “The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1” have brought to my attention some gaps in my exposition on the subject of the Creation of our Universe vis-a-vis the story of Genesis and the understanding put forth especially by the Mormon Faith of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. One of the responses came from a man whose work I have come to greatly admire, one Dr. Joseph Farrell, whose extensive work on alternative understandings of History, on myth and symbol and the nature of human consciousness, have been a great joy to me in my auto-didactic journey through the vast array of human cosmological ideas. Particularly, his expositions on the ideas of the Topological Metaphor have been formative to my own understanding of the meaning of the creation stories of the various mythologies and religions of the human race, and particularly the creation story taught within my own faith, that of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

    Dr. Farrell’s response was simply this, “An interesting article, but one thing: the Trinitarian distinctions are not merely notional simply because they’re topological.” His response is echoed in the response of one reader name mikeymikemike99 from the /r/LatterDaySaints sub-reddit who wrote the insightful comment, “even I hold the stance that God had a body and a God before he was ours. Per the King Follet speech, we know that God had a form in whatever dimension or plane that was, similar to the one he has now, and like the ones we have today. To say that God created himself sort of nullifies the doctrine of ‘As Man is God once was, and as God is, Man may become’. I could be misunderstanding your narrative, and am fully open to correction.”

     To address these responses and fully clarify what I have attempted to put forth from my visionary experiences, I am sitting down today with a prayerful heart and an open mind. I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide me in the immensity of this undertaking, that I may do justice to the vast and incomparable work of God that is wrought in our universe and in us, His spirit children. I will do so by referencing the aforementioned King Follett Sermon given by our great and noble prophet, Joseph Smith, which is oft maligned and misunderstood because of its grandeur and multi-dimensional vision of the true foundations of the universe. I don’t claim to fully understand the magnificence of these architectures and artifices of God in the way that Joseph Smith did, and certainly I do not claim to understand them in the way that our Heavenly Father understands them, but I will attempt now to clarify in what ways I can the things that I have been shown, not for just for my own sake, but for the edification of all beings who have the ears to hear and the eyes to see.

    As our wise prophet Joseph began in the King Follett Sermon, by saying “if we start right, it is easy to go right all the time” let me begin first with the famous couplet of Church President Lorenzo Snow, “As man is, God once was: as God now is, Man may be.” This is an illustrative verse showing us the pure nature of the Eternal Round. As Joseph begins in the King Follett Sermon, so shall we. Joseph begins by saying, “There is the starting point for us to look to, in order to understand and be fully acquainted with the mind, purposes and decrees of the Great Eloheim, who sits in yonder heavens as he did at the creation of the world. It is necessary for us to have an understanding of God himself in the beginning.”

    He goes on to say, “What kind of being is God? Does any man or woman know? Have any of you seen Him, heard Him, or communed with Him? Here is the question that will, peradventure, from this time henceforth occupy your attention. The scriptures inform us that “this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.” (John 17:3.)”

    We set forth now to discuss the nature of God, and the nature of His son Jesus Christ, even our great Jehovah, who is our Lord and God. Joseph continues with the great exposition, “I will go back to the beginning before the world was, to show what kind of a being God is. What sort of a being was God in the beginning? Open your ears and hear, all ye ends of the earth, for I am going to prove it to you by the Bible, and to tell you the designs of God in relation to the human race, and why He interferes with the affairs of man.

    “God himself was once as we are now, and is an exalted man, and sits enthroned in yonder heavens! That is the great secret. If the veil were rent today, and the great God who holds this world in its orbit, and who upholds all worlds and all things by His power, was to make himself visible—I say, if you were to see him today, you would see him like a man in form—like yourselves in all the person, image, and very form as a man; for Adam was created in the very fashion, image and likeness of God, and received instruction from, and walked, talked and conversed with Him, as one man talks and communes with another.”

    I agree in every single whit with what Joseph is saying here. God the Father has a physical form, that is to say, He is not merely a “notional distinction” because He was created first by topological distinction. No, that is not what I have been saying at all. God the Father is a truly distinct form and sbustance, whose root is in the infinite divine substance of whom He is the greatest Lord and Fruit. We give unto him the title of Elohim, which is not a name but a plural title, for there are others who fall in to the category of Elohim, such as our Lord Jesus Christ, YHVH, Jehovah, who shows himself by this title in verses such as “And the LORD God (YHVH) said, ‘Behold, the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil; and now lest he put forth his hand, and take also from the Tree of Life, and eat, and live forever: So the LORD God (YHVH) banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken” (Gen 3:22-23) where we see that Jehovah is speaking of a plural “Us” which is to say beings of the title Elohim, which we can discern means at least God the Father, and himself, Jesus Christ the Son. We see this again in Exodus 6:2 which reads in the KJV, “And God spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am the LORD.” In Hebrew, this reads as “and Elohim spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am Jehovah.” By this we can begin to see that Elohim is more of a distinction of title. A state of Godhood. Jehovah is the name of this Elohim, who is our Lord Jesus Christ. God the Father is also a being like unto this, but whose proper, distinct name we are not given as we are given the name Jehovah.

    We read from Joseph Smith’s Discourse: “it is necessary we should understand the character and being of God and how He came to be so; for I am going to tell you how God came to be God. We have imagined and supposed that God was God from all eternity. I will refute that idea, and take away the veil, so that you may see.

    “These ideas are incomprehensible to some, but they are simple. It is the first principle of the gospel to know for a certainty the character of God, and to know that we may converse with Him as one man converses with another, and that He was once a man like us; yea, that God himself, the Father of us all, dwelt on an earth, the same as Jesus Christ Himself did; and I will show it from the Bible.”
    “The scriptures inform us that Jesus said, as the Father hath power in himself, even so hath the Son power—to do what? Why, what the Father did. The answer is obvious—in a manner to lay down his body and take it up again. Jesus, what are you going to do? To lay down my life as my Father did, and take it up again. Do you believe it? If you do not believe it you do not believe the Bible. The scriptures say it, and I defy all the learning and wisdom and all the combined powers of earth and hell together to refute it. Here, then, is eternal life—to know the only wise and true God; and you have got to learn how to be gods yourselves, and to be kings and priests to God, the same as all gods have done before you, namely, by going from one small degree to another, and from a small capacity to a great one; from grace to grace, from exaltation to exaltation, until you attain to the resurrection of the dead, and are able to dwell in everlasting burnings, and to sit in glory, as do those who sit enthroned in everlasting power. And I want you to know that God, in the last days, while certain individuals are proclaiming His name, is not trifling with you or me.”

    “These are the first principles of consolation. How consoling to the mourners when they are called to part with a husband, wife, father, mother, child, or dear relative, to know that, although the earthly tabernacle is laid down and dissolved, they shall rise again to dwell in everlasting burnings in immortal glory, not to sorrow, suffer, or die any more, but they shall be heirs of God and joint heirs with Jesus Christ. What is it? To inherit the same power, the same glory and the same exaltation, until you arrive at the station of a god, and ascend the throne of eternal power, the same as those who have gone before. What did Jesus do? Why, I do the things I saw my Father do when worlds came rolling into existence. My Father worked out His kingdom with fear and trembling, and I must do the same; and when I get my kingdom, I shall present it to My Father, so that He may obtain kingdom upon kingdom, and it will exalt Him in glory. He will then take a higher exaltation, and I will take His place, and thereby become exalted myself. So that Jesus treads in the tracks of His Father, and inherits what God did before; and God is thus glorified and exalted in the salvation and exaltation of all His children. It is plain beyond disputation, and you thus learn some of the first principles of the gospel, about which so much hath been said.”

    What is Joseph saying here? He is telling us that God the Father, rooted in the great divine infinite, distinguished itself by means of topological distinctions within the great infinite void, and rendered unto himself a kingdom. He built from a great void that was in truth the infinity of all potentiality the universe that we know today, growing through the eternities to become the great God he is now. At some point he created Christ the Son from His own being in His own image by Topological distinction. These things may not have taken place in time proper as we know it, because God’s divine mind lies within the vast eternities, and time is but a construct of our lesser minds with which we make sense of the vast possibilities of the infinite and siphon out the meaning of the “here and now” from the eternal infinite potentiality of all things. We do this in a process of moving from lesser to greater steps. As Joseph puts it, “When you climb up a ladder, you must begin at the bottom, and ascend step by step, until you arrive at the top; and so it is with the principles of the gospel—you must begin with the first, and go on until you learn all the principles of exaltation.”

    “I shall comment on the very first Hebrew word in the Bible; I will make a comment on the very first sentence of the history of creation in the Bible—Berosheit. I want to analyze the word. Baith—in, by, through, and everything else. Rosh—the head, Sheit—grammatical termination. When the inspired man wrote it, he did not put the baith there. An old Jew without any authority added the word; he thought it too bad to begin to talk about the head! It read first, “The head one of the Gods brought forth the Gods.” That is the true meaning of the words. Baurau signifies to bring forth. If you do not believe it, you do not believe the learned man of God. Learned men can teach you no more than what I have told you. Thus the head God brought forth the Gods in the grand council.

    “I will transpose and simplify it in the English language. Oh, ye lawyers, ye doctors, and ye priests, who have persecuted me, I want to let you know that the Holy Ghost knows something as well as you do. The head God called together the Gods and sat in grand council to bring forth the world. The grand councilors sat at the head in yonder heavens and contemplated the creation of the worlds which were created at the time.”

    Joseph is here speaking of the Elohim, the great title of the councilors of God, of whom our Lord is Jehovah, the Son of that great Head God, God the Father. The workings of this creation of God and Gods, and the complexity thereof, is given simply in Genesis, as I have explicated in my previous articles “The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1” and also “The Iron Rod, or the Moment I First Realized the Book of Mormon was True.”
    “In the beginning, the head of the Gods called a council of the Gods; and they came together and concocted [prepared] a plan to create the world and people it. When we begin to learn this way, we begin to learn the only true God, and what kind of a being we have got to worship. Having a knowledge of God, we begin to know how to approach Him, and how to ask so as to receive an answer.

    “When we understand the character of God, and know how to come to Him, he begins to unfold the heavens to us, and to tell us all about it. When we are ready to come to him, he is ready to come to us.

    “Now, I ask all who hear me, why the learned men who are preaching salvation, say that God created the heavens and the earth out of nothing? The reason is, that they are unlearned in the things of God, and have not the gift of the Holy Ghost; they account it blasphemy in any one to contradict their idea. If you tell them that God made the world out of something, they will call you a fool. But I am learned, and know more than all the world put together. The Holy Ghost does, anyhow, and he is within me, and comprehends more than all the world; and I will associate myself with him.”

     “You ask the learned doctors why they say the world was made out of nothing, and they will answer, “Doesn’t the Bible say he created the world?” And they infer, from the word create, that it must have been made out of nothing. Now, the word create came from the word baurau, which does not mean to create out of nothing; it means to organize; the same as a man would organize materials and build a ship. Hence we infer that God had materials to organize the world out of chaos—chaotic matter, which is element, and in which dwells all the glory. Element had an existence from the time He had. The pure principles of element are principles which can never be destroyed; they may be organized and re-organized, but not destroyed. They had no beginning and can have no end.”

    So we see here what Joseph is saying: that God organized the vast eternal potential of the original, undifferentiated infinite, and divided it by topological distinction in to smaller, holographic infinites which were all created in the precise, spiritual image of their origin. What we have here is all the questions we might need to answer about the origin of the universe. We know who, we know how, we know why, we know when, and so on. We have been taught the method of creation through scripture itself. It is clearly explicated for those who have the eyes to see and the ears to hear. These things are created so that all of us, the spirit Children of God may understand the vastness of the great plan which He has laid out for us, that we may take up our shovels and scythes and go forth and reap his Great Fruits and build up His Kingdom and lay up vast treasures of love and light unto Him in to the great eternities. We will fill our universe with love and light through the teachings that He has passed down to use through our prophet Joseph, and especially through the works and atonement of our Heavenly Father’s only begotten Son Jesus Christ.

     Joseph goes on to teach: “We say that God Himself is a self-existing being. Who told you so? It is correct enough; but how did it get into your heads? Who told you that man did not exist in like manner upon the same principles? Man does exist upon the same principles. God made a tabernacle and put a spirit into it, and it became a living soul. (Refers to the Bible.) How does it read in the Hebrew? It does not say in the Hebrew that God created the spirit of man. It says, “God made man out of the earth and put into him Adam’s spirit, and so became a living body.”

    “The mind or the intelligence which man possesses is co-equal [co-eternal] with God himself. I know that my testimony is true; hence, when I talk to these mourners, what have they lost? Their relatives and friends are only separated from their bodies for a short season: their spirits which existed with God have left the tabernacle of clay only for a little moment, as it were; and they now exist in a place where they converse together the same as we do on the earth.

    “I am dwelling on the immortality of the spirit of man. Is it logical to say that the intelligence of spirits is immortal, and yet that it has a beginning? The intelligence of spirits had no beginning, neither will it have an end. That is good logic. That which has a beginning may have an end. There never was a time when there were not spirits; for they are co-equal [co-eternal] with our Father in heaven.

    “Intelligence is eternal and exists upon a self-existent principle. It is a spirit from age to age and there is no creation about it. All the minds and spirits that God ever sent into the world are susceptible of enlargement.

    “The first principles of man are self-existent with God. God himself, finding he was in the midst of spirits and glory, because he was more intelligent, saw proper to institute laws whereby the rest could have a privilege to advance like himself. The relationship we have with God places us in a situation to advance in knowledge. He has power to institute laws to instruct the weaker intelligences, that they may be exalted with Himself, so that they might have one glory upon another, and all that knowledge, power, glory, and intelligence, which is requisite in order to save them in the world of spirits.

    “This is good doctrine. It tastes good. I can taste the principles of eternal life, and so can you. They are given to me by the revelations of Jesus Christ; and I know that when I tell you these words of eternal life as they are given to me, you taste them, and I know that you believe them. You say honey is sweet, and so do I. I can also taste the spirit of eternal life. I know that it is good; and when I tell you of these things which were given me by inspiration of the Holy Spirit, you are bound to receive them as sweet, and rejoice more and more.”

    So what we see here, very clearly given by Joseph, and also by the Topological Metaphor of the Medium as put for by Dr. Joseph Farrell, and by my work with the Topological Metaphor and its conjunction with Kabbalistic explication of the creation story of Genesis 1, all demonstrate the same thing: that the great infinity was a great, undifferentiated void of all potentiality which was then organized, by the spirit of the one we call God the Father, in to smaller distinctions that are topological in nature, and so contain the exact, precise image of the great infinity from which they came. By this we know we are co-existent, co-eternal intelligences with our God, our Heavenly Father, and yet it is also true that we are his Spirit Children and He is the great Creator of Us and what we know as our selves in this day and in this time. God has rendered unto us all existence as we know it, and we owe a great debt to Him, our Heavenly Father.
    Let all who have ears to hear read this and be inspired in their worship of God, to know their own true nature of divinity, and to know the divinity of God and His Son Jesus Christ, and of the veracity of the Holy Spirit. Let the Holy Spirit testify of these things to you in your own way. Pray and seek these answers for yourself, for you should not believe anything simply because it is written and told to you on the the basis of authority, no matter how pleasing or correct it may sound. Seek out with diligence the Truth of God, and do so in the name of Jesus Christ and the by the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. I offer this testimony now to you, my brothers and sisters, in the hopes of relieving the suffering of all beings, and bring all beings to the salvation prepared for them from the beginning of Time and the foundation of our World by our Lord Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. I testify of this and of the truth of our Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1

Creation myths from all over the world have some interesting commonalities. The great void, the beginningless empty infinity of the cosmos, the great spirit that stirred and moved upon the face of the deep. In the very beginning of the Book of Genesis we read that,

“1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.”

     I have had a vision that has imparted upon me insight in to the meaning of this passage. In the beginning, Elohim (plural Hebrew word, referring to God the Father) created the heaven and the earth. The great, infinite, eternal intelligence of Elohim recognized the difference between matter and space. Matter had as of yet no form, and was a great void, an endless potential of possibility but not yet having any shape. Darkness was upon the face of the universe, a kind of opacity, that came from the permeation of the void with formless matter. When God separated the heaven from the earth, He created space (heaven) and formed matter within that space (earth). The Spirit of God then moved across this great, vast space, and uttered the first word, which is YHVH, Jehovah, the Light of the World, Jesus Christ, the Logos. Refer to John 1: “In the beginning was the Word (logos), and the Word was with God and the word was God.” God began to fill this great void which he had separated in to space and time with another thing: light. Not just the mere physical light that we understand today, but the pure, spiritual light of understanding, of love, of the essence of all things. The universe, having been separated in to matter and space, was no longer opaque, and could be filled with light, so Elohim breathed life and light in to the universe with the Word, “Jehovah.” Let there be light.
     This great initial infinity, this great “void,” was the infinity of the mind of God. God, with his great wisdom and intelligence, created delineations in His infinite mind. These, by the nature of infinity, would be purely topological constructs, since they would also contain an infinity of values themselves. They were created in the image and essence of God, an exact mirror of His being, but with information added by the delineation and separation of one thing from another. That first separation, that of the Father and Son, Elohim and Jehovah, was the initial creation. Infinity divided itself in twain, like a cell divides in a mother’s womb. These two infinities were purely conceptual at this point, only existing because of the infinite’s awareness and perception of itself. These two infinities shared a common plane, a common membrane, a common topological face, an infinity of shared values between this delineated infinity and that delineated infinity. That common membrane was what we call today the Holy Ghost or the Holy Spirit. The Father and the Son coalesced physical bodies within their infinities of space and time, but the Holy Spirit was an ever-immanent common face that permeated all, yet had no form itself, for it was the commonality of shared values between the Father and Son, the linking force of Creation. This triune Godhead is what is sometimes called the Trinity, and its doctrine is reflected across many different religions and cultures. We have the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, but there is also Brahma the creator, Siva the changer, and Vishnu the sustainer in Hinduism, as just one parallel example.
     There are certain patterns in Genesis that reveal deeper meanings. Within the first creation story of Genesis is a certain pattern, corresponding to the 10 numbers and the 22 Hebrew letters, creating a network of 32 pathways. Incidentally, the number of nervous pathways branching from the human spine in pairs is 31, with a 32nd in the brain complex itself, comprised itself of 10 primary pathways. When it is said that mankind is made in the image of Elohim, many deep things are intended. That is why scripture is so rich with meaning.
     The 10 numbers correspond to sayings of God, called Sefirot by Kabbalists. Each one of those sayings is a direct act of creation that God made by speaking a Word of Creation. In the beginning, God. This is the first Sefirot, God the Father, Himself a “word” or vibratory emanation of the infinite divine substance. Next, God said “let there be light,” that is, YHVH, Jehovah, the second sefirot. The son. Then God said, let there be a firmament. The third sefirot, the Holy Spirit, the common face of God and his Son, through which all their interactions, the interactions of the light of the son and the love of the father would play across the cosmos. The immanent divine in all creation. God said, let the waters be gathered, the fourth sefirot. This is the forming of initial shapes, as gases across the cosmos began to coalesce, and the Earth was made. God saw the dry land, that is to say, the matter of rocky, earthy planets, and saw that it was good. He said, let the Earth be vegetated, the fifth sefirot, the creation of Life. Note that this is across the great Cosmos, and is a process of the grouping of long carbon chains in to complex acids which then begin to self-replicate. This began before the Earth was fully formed. The seeds of life are present throughout the Universe.
     Next, God said “Let there be lights in the firmament to divide the day from the night.” Here is where we see the beginning of the formation and creation of our own Solar System, that we have come to know and love. Life already existed, and the form of the Earth already existed within God’s mind. The patterns and frameworks were in place through the Cosmos, but now these luminaries were put in to place, these lights so that a particular incubator would be created. A garden. Eden, the Earth. And God said, “Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life,” forming the seventh Sefirot, the beginning of Life as we recognize it on Earth, which is the life that began within the Oceans and Seas of our wonderful world. God said, “Let the Earth bring forth animals” and this was the eighth sefirot, where life begins upon the land itself. Next, God said, “let us make Man” which is the ninth sefirot.
     In the form of God, that is the form of Elohim, He created them. God created the first Man out of the great infinity, as a holographic divine Child of the Cosmos, a reflection of God’s great love and light. And then God put in to place the last, sealing sefirot of the great Tree of Life when he said: “Be fruitful, and multiply!” This was the final great act of creation, through which we, mankind and life itself, would go forth and fill the cosmos with His love and light, with family and fellowship, with laughter and creativity.
     This is the nature of the great creation of God as given to us in Genesis. This is the structure of the Tree of Life, with its roots in the infinitely small and its branches in the infinitely large. This is the structure of our own being, created by God our Heavenly Father at the foundation of the Cosmos. His vast intelligence, wisdom, and love blesses us immensely. We are his spirit children, come upon the Earth to learn and to grow, to bear fruit unto Him and unto eachother, for the shared sustenance of all beings in the Cosmos. I leave these words with you in the love and the light of God. In the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer, our great Sustaining Master. Amen.

The Beauty of Atonement


    Over this past year, I have made much progress in my spiritual and emotional life. One of the hardest things I’ve had to deal with is my relationship to my father, who passed away in April of 2015. I was very angry when he passed away. So angry that soon after picking my older sister and mother up from the airport in Portland, Oregon, I kicked them out of the car on the side of the freeway. My emotions were so confused and tangled then, and they balled up tighter and tighter inside of me, forming a knot deep within my soul.

    My father was a difficult man to know. He worked on many top secret government projects for the US military as an engineer contractor through Lockheed Martin and BAE systems, among others, as well as being a hardware director at 3Com when the first Palm Pilot PDAs were developed, precursors to the modern smartphone to which we have all become so willingly or unwillingly attached. He was a brilliant man, truly, but one who had a troubled emotional life and a hard way of expressing his emotions. This often manifested in cruelty to those closest to him in one of the strange paradoxes of human relationship that I have seen mirrored across many other’s relationships to dear loved ones.

    I both loved and hated my father. He was both a good man and a bad man, sometimes both at the same time, sometimes alternating between one and the other. I, and many others in my family, had a difficult relationship with him. In the last years of his life I was perhaps the closest to him out of anyone on the Earth, because he was a banjo player and I had inherited my love of bluegrass music from his influence. He ended his life as a profoundly lonely man, living alone in Vancouver, Washington. He passed away one day and it took a week for anyone to notice that something was wrong, when he wouldn’t answer any phone calls or texts or emails.

    I was working very hard as a truck driver in those days. I would be on the road for 14 to 16 hours a day, moving mail from the main postal office near the Reno, Nevada airport up to the towns around Alturas, in Modoc county California, which involved around 200 miles of driving in each direction every single day to complete the route. It was during that time that my father passed away. I had been asking for time off work for weeks on end, and was told “just another week, we need you this week; you can go next week, I promise!” until finally the news came that my father was no longer alive in this world.

    I was filled with an anger beyond description. Not at anyone or anything in particular, but just a sense of immense frustration with the world and with my inability to relate to my father when he was alive and my inability to comfort him in his last moments. I then drove up to Vancouver to meet my older sister Emma and my mother Dawna to handle his affairs and settle things.

    Over the few years since his death, I have had a difficult time wrestling with these emotions. They formed a deep, dark, violent ball of negative energy within my gut. I repressed them and compressed them down with the help of drugs and alcohol so that I wouldn’t have to feel the pain that seemed to have no release. This is not an uncommon story, and I have seen reflections of similar tales in the faces of many people I have met in this world. I feel that this story has benefited me greatly in my music and my art so that I may be able to create something that will touch the lives of others that I meet.

    It was only in this past year, as I came unto the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, that this knot finally began to unwind. I began to understand the suffering and atonement of Jesus Christ as he prayed in the garden of Gethsemane and suffered on the cross on Calvary hill. I understood the divine love of God for all of us, His spirit children upon the Earth, and the importance of this Earthly academy which we have come to live in to learn and grow and become greater and more whole beings. In the book of Genesis it is said that God created us in His image, and each day as we strive through difficult trials and tests we are able to become more and more like him, improving ourselves day by day to adopt the pure love of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ our Lord who died and was resurrected so as to cure our sufferings and give us the remission of our sins.

    I was baptized in the Reno, Nevada Temple as a surrogate for my father, so that he might have a remission of his sins in the world after this world. I did not think he would accept this blessing, and as I prayed and meditated, for a long time it seemed as though he hadn’t. He was still struggling in the afterlife, faced with the hellish images of the suffering that had been inflicted on him and the suffering that he had inflicted on others in return. Over time, though, it seems progress was made.

    A few nights ago, as I went to pray, I prayed to be made an instrument in God’s hand unto the salvation of my brothers and sisters here upon the Earth. I prayed that He would make me a tool for the liberation of my fellow beings from suffering. As I prayed, I felt an immense weight pressing down on me. Deep within my core, a knot began to slip and loosen. Tears flowed down my face as this knot unwound, and images flooded my mind showing me many memories that I had forgotten or repressed of my father. These things were released, then, I was told by a quiet, solemn voice, because my father, Earle Thomas White, had finally accepted the gift of the atonement of Jesus Christ on the other side of the veil of death. Through my work in the Temple, my father had found a remission of his sins, and all the negativity he had left in this world was now being retracted through the power of his repentance, and being replaced with the pure love of God and the pure light of Jesus Christ.

    My father was not always the best man, but still he was a good man. I love him with all my heart. All the negative feelings I have ever had that had been knotted up inside of me for so long had finally come unwound, and this through the power and atonement of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

    As we come upon this Christmas season, I say unto you who reads this, that our Savior Jesus Christ lives. Our Heavenly Father lives. He loves us. This world was created as a place for us to learn and to grow and to love and have joy. Let all beings seek their salvation and work out their salvation with penitent hearts, coming unto Christ and their Heavenly Father with a contrite spirit and seeking the healing that has always been available to them, if they but had the faith to ask for it.

    Christ told us in Matthew 7:7-8: “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”

    I know that this is true. I know that this power of atonement has been gifted to all of us here upon the Earth, if we but open our eyes and look to Heaven for the blessing of Christ and our Heavenly Father. If you seek it, pray unto him and ask for the healing of your afflictions, and in your faith it will be given unto you. I testify of this in the name of the Son of God, which is the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

The Iron Rod

     I remember the very moment I realized the Book of Mormon was inspired scripture. The sound of truth reverberated in me like a gong. I was shaken. “Uh-oh, maybe my vision was real,” I thought to myself. Human beings have an amazing capacity for denial. Despite my visionary experience on that fateful December night, almost one year ago now, I had not blindly accepted what I had been told. After all, perhaps I was merely crazy. Perhaps my “vision” was just a fluke, a glitch, a daydream. On the other hand…

     I had to know. I had to find out. The only thing to do to verify my vision was to scrutinize the Book of Mormon, the pillar of my vision. If I could find fault in the Book of Mormon, I could dismiss my vision as whimsical fancy or temporary insanity. If I found truth there, then… Well, best worry about that later, I thought then. So I dove deep in to the Book of Mormon, casting the nets of inquiry across the pages. I intended to haul whatever lay within to the surface, to be laid bare for examination beneath the burning light of the rational mind. Before I was even out of the first book, I was struck by what I had uncovered.

    It was in 1 Nephi 11. A man named Lehi, after leading his family from Jerusalem, had “a dream, a vision,” of an Iron Rod leading to the Tree of Life. I was immediately intrigued by Lehi’s “dream.” I saw my own reflection smiling back at me from behind the words. It was a curious sensation, but I shook it off and continued. It was when Lehi’s son Nephi asked the Holy Spirit to show him the vision his father had seen that I was truly startled in to realization.

     You see, I had studied the Tree of Life in the Jewish Kabbalah tradition, poring over the Sepher Yetzirah and commentaries on it for the past five or six years, led by the phenomenal scholarship of Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan. In the garden of Eden there was a tree just beside the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil from which Adam and Eve partook of the fruit that caused their fall, and that tree was the Tree of Life. “And the LORD God (YHVH) said, ‘Behold, the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil; and now lest he put forth his hand, and take also from the Tree of Life, and eat, and live forever: So the LORD God (YHVH) banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken” (Gen 3:22-23)

     This passage puzzled me for a very long time. Who was the YHVH speaking to when he referred to “us?” And what is the nature of the name YHVH anyway? How is the “YHVH” different from the “Elohim” who created the Cosmos in the first book of Genesis? What is the nature of the tree of life that YHVH is referring to, sitting next to the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil?

     The Kabbalists held that the Tree of Life was an archetype or almost geometric model for the universe, with its roots in the infinitely small, and branches stretched to the infinitely large. The Tree of Life is sometimes said to be the true Torah itself, the blueprint of all creation. In that Kabbalistic blueprint, words are very powerful things. They contain a quality, a quantity, and communicate the self-nature of a thing in a very real, direct way. Every word in the Torah is a building block of the Kingdom of God. Every word is part of the structure of our very existence.

     The Name of God: YHVH, the Tetragrammaton, which in English is most often rendered as Jehovah, is not the same in the Torah as the name of God “Elohim.” It refers to something other than God the Father. In the Rabbinical commentaries it is said that YHVH was the first Word of God, which was the word uttered by Elohim to create the Cosmos as we know it. If we break down this word in to its Hebrew letters, we have yud heh vav heh. Turning to my understanding of the Sepher Yetzirah, I realized that this “word” that began the universe was the sound of breathing! “Yud” is the single point, the thud of arrival of consciousness, then “heh,” the outbreath, then “vav” the inbreath, then “heh” the outbreath again, literally breathing life in to the universe. When I thought of the creative Word of God, this Tetragrammaton, a reference from the New Testament popped in to my mind.

     “In the beginning was the Word (YHVH), and the Word was with God (Elohim), and the Word (YHVH) was God (El). The same (YHVH) was in the beginning with God (Elohim). All things were made by him (YHVH); and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehendeth it not.” John 1:1-5. “And the Word (YHVH) was made flesh, and dwelt among us (as Jesus), (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father (Elohim),) full of grace and truth.”

     So the LORD God, YHVH, Jehovah, that is, Jesus Christ, said to God the Father (Elohim) in the garden, “Behold the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil.” But why did Jehovah then forbid the fruit of the tree of life from Adam and Eve, and cast them out of the garden? At this point we come full circle to the Book of Mormon.

     In 1 Nephi 11:7 we read, “And behold this thing shall be given unto thee for a sign, that after thou hast beheld the tree which bore the fruit thy father tasted (the fruit of the tree of life), thou shalt also behold a man descending out of heaven, and him shall ye witness; and after ye have witnessed him ye shall bear record that it is the Son of God.”

    11:8 And it came to pass that the spirit said unto me: Look! and I looked and beheld a tree; and it was like unto the tree which my father had seen; and the beauty thereof was far beyond, yea, exceeding of all beauty; and the whiteness thereof did exceed the whiteness of the driven snow

    11:9 And it came to pass after I had seen the tree, I said unto the Spirit: I behold thou hast shown unto me the tree which is precious above all.

    11:10 And he said unto me: “what desirest thou?’

    11:11 And I said unto him: To know the interpretation thereof–for I spake unto him as a man speaketh; for I beheld that he was in the form of a man; yet nevertheless, I knew that it was the Spirit of the Lord; and he spake unto me as a man speaketh with another.

    11:16 And he said unto me: Knowest thou the condescension of God?

    11:21 And the Angel said unto me: Behold the Lamb of God, yea, even the Son of the Eternal Father! Knowest thou the meaning of the tree which thy father saw?

    11:22 And I answered unto him, saying: Yea, it is the love of God(!), which sheddeth itself abroad in the hearts of the children of Men, wherefore it is the most desireable above all things.

    11:25 And it came to pass that I beheld that the rod of iron, which my father had seen, was the word of God (YHVH!), which led to the fountain of living waters, or to the tree of life; which waters are a representation of the love of God; and I also beheld that the tree of life was a representation of the love of God.

    11:26 And the angel said unto me again: Look and behold the condescension of God!

     And it was as if the angel had spoken directly to me: Look and behold! The Iron Rod is the Word of God, YHVH, the breath of life in the world! The Tree of Life and the Fountain of Living Waters are the wellspring of God’s love for all of us, his children! I was struck dumb and smitten by the most powerful, joyful, compassionate blow of truth.

     No trickster had written this to get gain on his fellow man! This was the true Word of God! The mental images I had of Joseph Smith staring at stones in a hat and reciting the Book of Mormon to the people who recorded it now took on a whole different light. No man could fabricate such a thorough and truthful doctrine off the top of his head as some kind of party trick to try to make a buck on some upstate New York farmers. This MUST be a revelation, a truly inspired work sent by the divine hand of God himself.

    I was shocked, as if I had been struck by lightning. As if God had reached down himself and touched me and said “this is the truth.” I knew then that the Book of Mormon was true, and that I truly had found the restored Church of Jesus Christ upon this Earth. I write this testimony in his holy name, even the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.