On the King Follett Sermon, the Eternal Round, and the Incomparable Genius of Joseph Smith

Some of the responses from my last article, “The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1” have brought to my attention some gaps in my exposition on the subject of the Creation of our Universe vis-a-vis the story of Genesis and the understanding put forth especially by the Mormon Faith of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. One of the responses came from a man whose work I have come to greatly admire, one Dr. Joseph Farrell, whose extensive work on alternative understandings of History, on myth and symbol and the nature of human consciousness, have been a great joy to me in my auto-didactic journey through the vast array of human cosmological ideas. Particularly, his expositions on the ideas of the Topological Metaphor have been formative to my own understanding of the meaning of the creation stories of the various mythologies and religions of the human race, and particularly the creation story taught within my own faith, that of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

    Dr. Farrell’s response was simply this, “An interesting article, but one thing: the Trinitarian distinctions are not merely notional simply because they’re topological.” His response is echoed in the response of one reader name mikeymikemike99 from the /r/LatterDaySaints sub-reddit who wrote the insightful comment, “even I hold the stance that God had a body and a God before he was ours. Per the King Follet speech, we know that God had a form in whatever dimension or plane that was, similar to the one he has now, and like the ones we have today. To say that God created himself sort of nullifies the doctrine of ‘As Man is God once was, and as God is, Man may become’. I could be misunderstanding your narrative, and am fully open to correction.”

     To address these responses and fully clarify what I have attempted to put forth from my visionary experiences, I am sitting down today with a prayerful heart and an open mind. I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide me in the immensity of this undertaking, that I may do justice to the vast and incomparable work of God that is wrought in our universe and in us, His spirit children. I will do so by referencing the aforementioned King Follett Sermon given by our great and noble prophet, Joseph Smith, which is oft maligned and misunderstood because of its grandeur and multi-dimensional vision of the true foundations of the universe. I don’t claim to fully understand the magnificence of these architectures and artifices of God in the way that Joseph Smith did, and certainly I do not claim to understand them in the way that our Heavenly Father understands them, but I will attempt now to clarify in what ways I can the things that I have been shown, not for just for my own sake, but for the edification of all beings who have the ears to hear and the eyes to see.

    As our wise prophet Joseph began in the King Follett Sermon, by saying “if we start right, it is easy to go right all the time” let me begin first with the famous couplet of Church President Lorenzo Snow, “As man is, God once was: as God now is, Man may be.” This is an illustrative verse showing us the pure nature of the Eternal Round. As Joseph begins in the King Follett Sermon, so shall we. Joseph begins by saying, “There is the starting point for us to look to, in order to understand and be fully acquainted with the mind, purposes and decrees of the Great Eloheim, who sits in yonder heavens as he did at the creation of the world. It is necessary for us to have an understanding of God himself in the beginning.”

    He goes on to say, “What kind of being is God? Does any man or woman know? Have any of you seen Him, heard Him, or communed with Him? Here is the question that will, peradventure, from this time henceforth occupy your attention. The scriptures inform us that “this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.” (John 17:3.)”

    We set forth now to discuss the nature of God, and the nature of His son Jesus Christ, even our great Jehovah, who is our Lord and God. Joseph continues with the great exposition, “I will go back to the beginning before the world was, to show what kind of a being God is. What sort of a being was God in the beginning? Open your ears and hear, all ye ends of the earth, for I am going to prove it to you by the Bible, and to tell you the designs of God in relation to the human race, and why He interferes with the affairs of man.

    “God himself was once as we are now, and is an exalted man, and sits enthroned in yonder heavens! That is the great secret. If the veil were rent today, and the great God who holds this world in its orbit, and who upholds all worlds and all things by His power, was to make himself visible—I say, if you were to see him today, you would see him like a man in form—like yourselves in all the person, image, and very form as a man; for Adam was created in the very fashion, image and likeness of God, and received instruction from, and walked, talked and conversed with Him, as one man talks and communes with another.”

    I agree in every single whit with what Joseph is saying here. God the Father has a physical form, that is to say, He is not merely a “notional distinction” because He was created first by topological distinction. No, that is not what I have been saying at all. God the Father is a truly distinct form and sbustance, whose root is in the infinite divine substance of whom He is the greatest Lord and Fruit. We give unto him the title of Elohim, which is not a name but a plural title, for there are others who fall in to the category of Elohim, such as our Lord Jesus Christ, YHVH, Jehovah, who shows himself by this title in verses such as “And the LORD God (YHVH) said, ‘Behold, the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil; and now lest he put forth his hand, and take also from the Tree of Life, and eat, and live forever: So the LORD God (YHVH) banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken” (Gen 3:22-23) where we see that Jehovah is speaking of a plural “Us” which is to say beings of the title Elohim, which we can discern means at least God the Father, and himself, Jesus Christ the Son. We see this again in Exodus 6:2 which reads in the KJV, “And God spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am the LORD.” In Hebrew, this reads as “and Elohim spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am Jehovah.” By this we can begin to see that Elohim is more of a distinction of title. A state of Godhood. Jehovah is the name of this Elohim, who is our Lord Jesus Christ. God the Father is also a being like unto this, but whose proper, distinct name we are not given as we are given the name Jehovah.

    We read from Joseph Smith’s Discourse: “it is necessary we should understand the character and being of God and how He came to be so; for I am going to tell you how God came to be God. We have imagined and supposed that God was God from all eternity. I will refute that idea, and take away the veil, so that you may see.

    “These ideas are incomprehensible to some, but they are simple. It is the first principle of the gospel to know for a certainty the character of God, and to know that we may converse with Him as one man converses with another, and that He was once a man like us; yea, that God himself, the Father of us all, dwelt on an earth, the same as Jesus Christ Himself did; and I will show it from the Bible.”
    “The scriptures inform us that Jesus said, as the Father hath power in himself, even so hath the Son power—to do what? Why, what the Father did. The answer is obvious—in a manner to lay down his body and take it up again. Jesus, what are you going to do? To lay down my life as my Father did, and take it up again. Do you believe it? If you do not believe it you do not believe the Bible. The scriptures say it, and I defy all the learning and wisdom and all the combined powers of earth and hell together to refute it. Here, then, is eternal life—to know the only wise and true God; and you have got to learn how to be gods yourselves, and to be kings and priests to God, the same as all gods have done before you, namely, by going from one small degree to another, and from a small capacity to a great one; from grace to grace, from exaltation to exaltation, until you attain to the resurrection of the dead, and are able to dwell in everlasting burnings, and to sit in glory, as do those who sit enthroned in everlasting power. And I want you to know that God, in the last days, while certain individuals are proclaiming His name, is not trifling with you or me.”

    “These are the first principles of consolation. How consoling to the mourners when they are called to part with a husband, wife, father, mother, child, or dear relative, to know that, although the earthly tabernacle is laid down and dissolved, they shall rise again to dwell in everlasting burnings in immortal glory, not to sorrow, suffer, or die any more, but they shall be heirs of God and joint heirs with Jesus Christ. What is it? To inherit the same power, the same glory and the same exaltation, until you arrive at the station of a god, and ascend the throne of eternal power, the same as those who have gone before. What did Jesus do? Why, I do the things I saw my Father do when worlds came rolling into existence. My Father worked out His kingdom with fear and trembling, and I must do the same; and when I get my kingdom, I shall present it to My Father, so that He may obtain kingdom upon kingdom, and it will exalt Him in glory. He will then take a higher exaltation, and I will take His place, and thereby become exalted myself. So that Jesus treads in the tracks of His Father, and inherits what God did before; and God is thus glorified and exalted in the salvation and exaltation of all His children. It is plain beyond disputation, and you thus learn some of the first principles of the gospel, about which so much hath been said.”

    What is Joseph saying here? He is telling us that God the Father, rooted in the great divine infinite, distinguished itself by means of topological distinctions within the great infinite void, and rendered unto himself a kingdom. He built from a great void that was in truth the infinity of all potentiality the universe that we know today, growing through the eternities to become the great God he is now. At some point he created Christ the Son from His own being in His own image by Topological distinction. These things may not have taken place in time proper as we know it, because God’s divine mind lies within the vast eternities, and time is but a construct of our lesser minds with which we make sense of the vast possibilities of the infinite and siphon out the meaning of the “here and now” from the eternal infinite potentiality of all things. We do this in a process of moving from lesser to greater steps. As Joseph puts it, “When you climb up a ladder, you must begin at the bottom, and ascend step by step, until you arrive at the top; and so it is with the principles of the gospel—you must begin with the first, and go on until you learn all the principles of exaltation.”

    “I shall comment on the very first Hebrew word in the Bible; I will make a comment on the very first sentence of the history of creation in the Bible—Berosheit. I want to analyze the word. Baith—in, by, through, and everything else. Rosh—the head, Sheit—grammatical termination. When the inspired man wrote it, he did not put the baith there. An old Jew without any authority added the word; he thought it too bad to begin to talk about the head! It read first, “The head one of the Gods brought forth the Gods.” That is the true meaning of the words. Baurau signifies to bring forth. If you do not believe it, you do not believe the learned man of God. Learned men can teach you no more than what I have told you. Thus the head God brought forth the Gods in the grand council.

    “I will transpose and simplify it in the English language. Oh, ye lawyers, ye doctors, and ye priests, who have persecuted me, I want to let you know that the Holy Ghost knows something as well as you do. The head God called together the Gods and sat in grand council to bring forth the world. The grand councilors sat at the head in yonder heavens and contemplated the creation of the worlds which were created at the time.”

    Joseph is here speaking of the Elohim, the great title of the councilors of God, of whom our Lord is Jehovah, the Son of that great Head God, God the Father. The workings of this creation of God and Gods, and the complexity thereof, is given simply in Genesis, as I have explicated in my previous articles “The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1” and also “The Iron Rod, or the Moment I First Realized the Book of Mormon was True.”
    “In the beginning, the head of the Gods called a council of the Gods; and they came together and concocted [prepared] a plan to create the world and people it. When we begin to learn this way, we begin to learn the only true God, and what kind of a being we have got to worship. Having a knowledge of God, we begin to know how to approach Him, and how to ask so as to receive an answer.

    “When we understand the character of God, and know how to come to Him, he begins to unfold the heavens to us, and to tell us all about it. When we are ready to come to him, he is ready to come to us.

    “Now, I ask all who hear me, why the learned men who are preaching salvation, say that God created the heavens and the earth out of nothing? The reason is, that they are unlearned in the things of God, and have not the gift of the Holy Ghost; they account it blasphemy in any one to contradict their idea. If you tell them that God made the world out of something, they will call you a fool. But I am learned, and know more than all the world put together. The Holy Ghost does, anyhow, and he is within me, and comprehends more than all the world; and I will associate myself with him.”

     “You ask the learned doctors why they say the world was made out of nothing, and they will answer, “Doesn’t the Bible say he created the world?” And they infer, from the word create, that it must have been made out of nothing. Now, the word create came from the word baurau, which does not mean to create out of nothing; it means to organize; the same as a man would organize materials and build a ship. Hence we infer that God had materials to organize the world out of chaos—chaotic matter, which is element, and in which dwells all the glory. Element had an existence from the time He had. The pure principles of element are principles which can never be destroyed; they may be organized and re-organized, but not destroyed. They had no beginning and can have no end.”

    So we see here what Joseph is saying: that God organized the vast eternal potential of the original, undifferentiated infinite, and divided it by topological distinction in to smaller, holographic infinites which were all created in the precise, spiritual image of their origin. What we have here is all the questions we might need to answer about the origin of the universe. We know who, we know how, we know why, we know when, and so on. We have been taught the method of creation through scripture itself. It is clearly explicated for those who have the eyes to see and the ears to hear. These things are created so that all of us, the spirit Children of God may understand the vastness of the great plan which He has laid out for us, that we may take up our shovels and scythes and go forth and reap his Great Fruits and build up His Kingdom and lay up vast treasures of love and light unto Him in to the great eternities. We will fill our universe with love and light through the teachings that He has passed down to use through our prophet Joseph, and especially through the works and atonement of our Heavenly Father’s only begotten Son Jesus Christ.

     Joseph goes on to teach: “We say that God Himself is a self-existing being. Who told you so? It is correct enough; but how did it get into your heads? Who told you that man did not exist in like manner upon the same principles? Man does exist upon the same principles. God made a tabernacle and put a spirit into it, and it became a living soul. (Refers to the Bible.) How does it read in the Hebrew? It does not say in the Hebrew that God created the spirit of man. It says, “God made man out of the earth and put into him Adam’s spirit, and so became a living body.”

    “The mind or the intelligence which man possesses is co-equal [co-eternal] with God himself. I know that my testimony is true; hence, when I talk to these mourners, what have they lost? Their relatives and friends are only separated from their bodies for a short season: their spirits which existed with God have left the tabernacle of clay only for a little moment, as it were; and they now exist in a place where they converse together the same as we do on the earth.

    “I am dwelling on the immortality of the spirit of man. Is it logical to say that the intelligence of spirits is immortal, and yet that it has a beginning? The intelligence of spirits had no beginning, neither will it have an end. That is good logic. That which has a beginning may have an end. There never was a time when there were not spirits; for they are co-equal [co-eternal] with our Father in heaven.

    “Intelligence is eternal and exists upon a self-existent principle. It is a spirit from age to age and there is no creation about it. All the minds and spirits that God ever sent into the world are susceptible of enlargement.

    “The first principles of man are self-existent with God. God himself, finding he was in the midst of spirits and glory, because he was more intelligent, saw proper to institute laws whereby the rest could have a privilege to advance like himself. The relationship we have with God places us in a situation to advance in knowledge. He has power to institute laws to instruct the weaker intelligences, that they may be exalted with Himself, so that they might have one glory upon another, and all that knowledge, power, glory, and intelligence, which is requisite in order to save them in the world of spirits.

    “This is good doctrine. It tastes good. I can taste the principles of eternal life, and so can you. They are given to me by the revelations of Jesus Christ; and I know that when I tell you these words of eternal life as they are given to me, you taste them, and I know that you believe them. You say honey is sweet, and so do I. I can also taste the spirit of eternal life. I know that it is good; and when I tell you of these things which were given me by inspiration of the Holy Spirit, you are bound to receive them as sweet, and rejoice more and more.”

    So what we see here, very clearly given by Joseph, and also by the Topological Metaphor of the Medium as put for by Dr. Joseph Farrell, and by my work with the Topological Metaphor and its conjunction with Kabbalistic explication of the creation story of Genesis 1, all demonstrate the same thing: that the great infinity was a great, undifferentiated void of all potentiality which was then organized, by the spirit of the one we call God the Father, in to smaller distinctions that are topological in nature, and so contain the exact, precise image of the great infinity from which they came. By this we know we are co-existent, co-eternal intelligences with our God, our Heavenly Father, and yet it is also true that we are his Spirit Children and He is the great Creator of Us and what we know as our selves in this day and in this time. God has rendered unto us all existence as we know it, and we owe a great debt to Him, our Heavenly Father.
    Let all who have ears to hear read this and be inspired in their worship of God, to know their own true nature of divinity, and to know the divinity of God and His Son Jesus Christ, and of the veracity of the Holy Spirit. Let the Holy Spirit testify of these things to you in your own way. Pray and seek these answers for yourself, for you should not believe anything simply because it is written and told to you on the the basis of authority, no matter how pleasing or correct it may sound. Seek out with diligence the Truth of God, and do so in the name of Jesus Christ and the by the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. I offer this testimony now to you, my brothers and sisters, in the hopes of relieving the suffering of all beings, and bring all beings to the salvation prepared for them from the beginning of Time and the foundation of our World by our Lord Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. I testify of this and of the truth of our Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

The Topological Metaphor and Genesis 1

Creation myths from all over the world have some interesting commonalities. The great void, the beginningless empty infinity of the cosmos, the great spirit that stirred and moved upon the face of the deep. In the very beginning of the Book of Genesis we read that,

“1 In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.

2 And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.

3 And God said, Let there be light: and there was light.”

     I have had a vision that has imparted upon me insight in to the meaning of this passage. In the beginning, Elohim (plural Hebrew word, referring to God the Father) created the heaven and the earth. The great, infinite, eternal intelligence of Elohim recognized the difference between matter and space. Matter had as of yet no form, and was a great void, an endless potential of possibility but not yet having any shape. Darkness was upon the face of the universe, a kind of opacity, that came from the permeation of the void with formless matter. When God separated the heaven from the earth, He created space (heaven) and formed matter within that space (earth). The Spirit of God then moved across this great, vast space, and uttered the first word, which is YHVH, Jehovah, the Light of the World, Jesus Christ, the Logos. Refer to John 1: “In the beginning was the Word (logos), and the Word was with God and the word was God.” God began to fill this great void which he had separated in to space and time with another thing: light. Not just the mere physical light that we understand today, but the pure, spiritual light of understanding, of love, of the essence of all things. The universe, having been separated in to matter and space, was no longer opaque, and could be filled with light, so Elohim breathed life and light in to the universe with the Word, “Jehovah.” Let there be light.
     This great initial infinity, this great “void,” was the infinity of the mind of God. God, with his great wisdom and intelligence, created delineations in His infinite mind. These, by the nature of infinity, would be purely topological constructs, since they would also contain an infinity of values themselves. They were created in the image and essence of God, an exact mirror of His being, but with information added by the delineation and separation of one thing from another. That first separation, that of the Father and Son, Elohim and Jehovah, was the initial creation. Infinity divided itself in twain, like a cell divides in a mother’s womb. These two infinities were purely conceptual at this point, only existing because of the infinite’s awareness and perception of itself. These two infinities shared a common plane, a common membrane, a common topological face, an infinity of shared values between this delineated infinity and that delineated infinity. That common membrane was what we call today the Holy Ghost or the Holy Spirit. The Father and the Son coalesced physical bodies within their infinities of space and time, but the Holy Spirit was an ever-immanent common face that permeated all, yet had no form itself, for it was the commonality of shared values between the Father and Son, the linking force of Creation. This triune Godhead is what is sometimes called the Trinity, and its doctrine is reflected across many different religions and cultures. We have the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, but there is also Brahma the creator, Siva the changer, and Vishnu the sustainer in Hinduism, as just one parallel example.
     There are certain patterns in Genesis that reveal deeper meanings. Within the first creation story of Genesis is a certain pattern, corresponding to the 10 numbers and the 22 Hebrew letters, creating a network of 32 pathways. Incidentally, the number of nervous pathways branching from the human spine in pairs is 31, with a 32nd in the brain complex itself, comprised itself of 10 primary pathways. When it is said that mankind is made in the image of Elohim, many deep things are intended. That is why scripture is so rich with meaning.
     The 10 numbers correspond to sayings of God, called Sefirot by Kabbalists. Each one of those sayings is a direct act of creation that God made by speaking a Word of Creation. In the beginning, God. This is the first Sefirot, God the Father, Himself a “word” or vibratory emanation of the infinite divine substance. Next, God said “let there be light,” that is, YHVH, Jehovah, the second sefirot. The son. Then God said, let there be a firmament. The third sefirot, the Holy Spirit, the common face of God and his Son, through which all their interactions, the interactions of the light of the son and the love of the father would play across the cosmos. The immanent divine in all creation. God said, let the waters be gathered, the fourth sefirot. This is the forming of initial shapes, as gases across the cosmos began to coalesce, and the Earth was made. God saw the dry land, that is to say, the matter of rocky, earthy planets, and saw that it was good. He said, let the Earth be vegetated, the fifth sefirot, the creation of Life. Note that this is across the great Cosmos, and is a process of the grouping of long carbon chains in to complex acids which then begin to self-replicate. This began before the Earth was fully formed. The seeds of life are present throughout the Universe.
     Next, God said “Let there be lights in the firmament to divide the day from the night.” Here is where we see the beginning of the formation and creation of our own Solar System, that we have come to know and love. Life already existed, and the form of the Earth already existed within God’s mind. The patterns and frameworks were in place through the Cosmos, but now these luminaries were put in to place, these lights so that a particular incubator would be created. A garden. Eden, the Earth. And God said, “Let the waters bring forth abundantly the moving creature that hath life,” forming the seventh Sefirot, the beginning of Life as we recognize it on Earth, which is the life that began within the Oceans and Seas of our wonderful world. God said, “Let the Earth bring forth animals” and this was the eighth sefirot, where life begins upon the land itself. Next, God said, “let us make Man” which is the ninth sefirot.
     In the form of God, that is the form of Elohim, He created them. God created the first Man out of the great infinity, as a holographic divine Child of the Cosmos, a reflection of God’s great love and light. And then God put in to place the last, sealing sefirot of the great Tree of Life when he said: “Be fruitful, and multiply!” This was the final great act of creation, through which we, mankind and life itself, would go forth and fill the cosmos with His love and light, with family and fellowship, with laughter and creativity.
     This is the nature of the great creation of God as given to us in Genesis. This is the structure of the Tree of Life, with its roots in the infinitely small and its branches in the infinitely large. This is the structure of our own being, created by God our Heavenly Father at the foundation of the Cosmos. His vast intelligence, wisdom, and love blesses us immensely. We are his spirit children, come upon the Earth to learn and to grow, to bear fruit unto Him and unto eachother, for the shared sustenance of all beings in the Cosmos. I leave these words with you in the love and the light of God. In the name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Redeemer, our great Sustaining Master. Amen.

The Beauty of Atonement


    Over this past year, I have made much progress in my spiritual and emotional life. One of the hardest things I’ve had to deal with is my relationship to my father, who passed away in April of 2015. I was very angry when he passed away. So angry that soon after picking my older sister and mother up from the airport in Portland, Oregon, I kicked them out of the car on the side of the freeway. My emotions were so confused and tangled then, and they balled up tighter and tighter inside of me, forming a knot deep within my soul.

    My father was a difficult man to know. He worked on many top secret government projects for the US military as an engineer contractor through Lockheed Martin and BAE systems, among others, as well as being a hardware director at 3Com when the first Palm Pilot PDAs were developed, precursors to the modern smartphone to which we have all become so willingly or unwillingly attached. He was a brilliant man, truly, but one who had a troubled emotional life and a hard way of expressing his emotions. This often manifested in cruelty to those closest to him in one of the strange paradoxes of human relationship that I have seen mirrored across many other’s relationships to dear loved ones.

    I both loved and hated my father. He was both a good man and a bad man, sometimes both at the same time, sometimes alternating between one and the other. I, and many others in my family, had a difficult relationship with him. In the last years of his life I was perhaps the closest to him out of anyone on the Earth, because he was a banjo player and I had inherited my love of bluegrass music from his influence. He ended his life as a profoundly lonely man, living alone in Vancouver, Washington. He passed away one day and it took a week for anyone to notice that something was wrong, when he wouldn’t answer any phone calls or texts or emails.

    I was working very hard as a truck driver in those days. I would be on the road for 14 to 16 hours a day, moving mail from the main postal office near the Reno, Nevada airport up to the towns around Alturas, in Modoc county California, which involved around 200 miles of driving in each direction every single day to complete the route. It was during that time that my father passed away. I had been asking for time off work for weeks on end, and was told “just another week, we need you this week; you can go next week, I promise!” until finally the news came that my father was no longer alive in this world.

    I was filled with an anger beyond description. Not at anyone or anything in particular, but just a sense of immense frustration with the world and with my inability to relate to my father when he was alive and my inability to comfort him in his last moments. I then drove up to Vancouver to meet my older sister Emma and my mother Dawna to handle his affairs and settle things.

    Over the few years since his death, I have had a difficult time wrestling with these emotions. They formed a deep, dark, violent ball of negative energy within my gut. I repressed them and compressed them down with the help of drugs and alcohol so that I wouldn’t have to feel the pain that seemed to have no release. This is not an uncommon story, and I have seen reflections of similar tales in the faces of many people I have met in this world. I feel that this story has benefited me greatly in my music and my art so that I may be able to create something that will touch the lives of others that I meet.

    It was only in this past year, as I came unto the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, that this knot finally began to unwind. I began to understand the suffering and atonement of Jesus Christ as he prayed in the garden of Gethsemane and suffered on the cross on Calvary hill. I understood the divine love of God for all of us, His spirit children upon the Earth, and the importance of this Earthly academy which we have come to live in to learn and grow and become greater and more whole beings. In the book of Genesis it is said that God created us in His image, and each day as we strive through difficult trials and tests we are able to become more and more like him, improving ourselves day by day to adopt the pure love of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ our Lord who died and was resurrected so as to cure our sufferings and give us the remission of our sins.

    I was baptized in the Reno, Nevada Temple as a surrogate for my father, so that he might have a remission of his sins in the world after this world. I did not think he would accept this blessing, and as I prayed and meditated, for a long time it seemed as though he hadn’t. He was still struggling in the afterlife, faced with the hellish images of the suffering that had been inflicted on him and the suffering that he had inflicted on others in return. Over time, though, it seems progress was made.

    A few nights ago, as I went to pray, I prayed to be made an instrument in God’s hand unto the salvation of my brothers and sisters here upon the Earth. I prayed that He would make me a tool for the liberation of my fellow beings from suffering. As I prayed, I felt an immense weight pressing down on me. Deep within my core, a knot began to slip and loosen. Tears flowed down my face as this knot unwound, and images flooded my mind showing me many memories that I had forgotten or repressed of my father. These things were released, then, I was told by a quiet, solemn voice, because my father, Earle Thomas White, had finally accepted the gift of the atonement of Jesus Christ on the other side of the veil of death. Through my work in the Temple, my father had found a remission of his sins, and all the negativity he had left in this world was now being retracted through the power of his repentance, and being replaced with the pure love of God and the pure light of Jesus Christ.

    My father was not always the best man, but still he was a good man. I love him with all my heart. All the negative feelings I have ever had that had been knotted up inside of me for so long had finally come unwound, and this through the power and atonement of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

    As we come upon this Christmas season, I say unto you who reads this, that our Savior Jesus Christ lives. Our Heavenly Father lives. He loves us. This world was created as a place for us to learn and to grow and to love and have joy. Let all beings seek their salvation and work out their salvation with penitent hearts, coming unto Christ and their Heavenly Father with a contrite spirit and seeking the healing that has always been available to them, if they but had the faith to ask for it.

    Christ told us in Matthew 7:7-8: “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”

    I know that this is true. I know that this power of atonement has been gifted to all of us here upon the Earth, if we but open our eyes and look to Heaven for the blessing of Christ and our Heavenly Father. If you seek it, pray unto him and ask for the healing of your afflictions, and in your faith it will be given unto you. I testify of this in the name of the Son of God, which is the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

The Iron Rod

     I remember the very moment I realized the Book of Mormon was inspired scripture. The sound of truth reverberated in me like a gong. I was shaken. “Uh-oh, maybe my vision was real,” I thought to myself. Human beings have an amazing capacity for denial. Despite my visionary experience on that fateful December night, almost one year ago now, I had not blindly accepted what I had been told. After all, perhaps I was merely crazy. Perhaps my “vision” was just a fluke, a glitch, a daydream. On the other hand…

     I had to know. I had to find out. The only thing to do to verify my vision was to scrutinize the Book of Mormon, the pillar of my vision. If I could find fault in the Book of Mormon, I could dismiss my vision as whimsical fancy or temporary insanity. If I found truth there, then… Well, best worry about that later, I thought then. So I dove deep in to the Book of Mormon, casting the nets of inquiry across the pages. I intended to haul whatever lay within to the surface, to be laid bare for examination beneath the burning light of the rational mind. Before I was even out of the first book, I was struck by what I had uncovered.

    It was in 1 Nephi 11. A man named Lehi, after leading his family from Jerusalem, had “a dream, a vision,” of an Iron Rod leading to the Tree of Life. I was immediately intrigued by Lehi’s “dream.” I saw my own reflection smiling back at me from behind the words. It was a curious sensation, but I shook it off and continued. It was when Lehi’s son Nephi asked the Holy Spirit to show him the vision his father had seen that I was truly startled in to realization.

     You see, I had studied the Tree of Life in the Jewish Kabbalah tradition, poring over the Sepher Yetzirah and commentaries on it for the past five or six years, led by the phenomenal scholarship of Rabbi Aryeh Kaplan. In the garden of Eden there was a tree just beside the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil from which Adam and Eve partook of the fruit that caused their fall, and that tree was the Tree of Life. “And the LORD God (YHVH) said, ‘Behold, the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil; and now lest he put forth his hand, and take also from the Tree of Life, and eat, and live forever: So the LORD God (YHVH) banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken” (Gen 3:22-23)

     This passage puzzled me for a very long time. Who was the YHVH speaking to when he referred to “us?” And what is the nature of the name YHVH anyway? How is the “YHVH” different from the “Elohim” who created the Cosmos in the first book of Genesis? What is the nature of the tree of life that YHVH is referring to, sitting next to the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil?

     The Kabbalists held that the Tree of Life was an archetype or almost geometric model for the universe, with its roots in the infinitely small, and branches stretched to the infinitely large. The Tree of Life is sometimes said to be the true Torah itself, the blueprint of all creation. In that Kabbalistic blueprint, words are very powerful things. They contain a quality, a quantity, and communicate the self-nature of a thing in a very real, direct way. Every word in the Torah is a building block of the Kingdom of God. Every word is part of the structure of our very existence.

     The Name of God: YHVH, the Tetragrammaton, which in English is most often rendered as Jehovah, is not the same in the Torah as the name of God “Elohim.” It refers to something other than God the Father. In the Rabbinical commentaries it is said that YHVH was the first Word of God, which was the word uttered by Elohim to create the Cosmos as we know it. If we break down this word in to its Hebrew letters, we have yud heh vav heh. Turning to my understanding of the Sepher Yetzirah, I realized that this “word” that began the universe was the sound of breathing! “Yud” is the single point, the thud of arrival of consciousness, then “heh,” the outbreath, then “vav” the inbreath, then “heh” the outbreath again, literally breathing life in to the universe. When I thought of the creative Word of God, this Tetragrammaton, a reference from the New Testament popped in to my mind.

     “In the beginning was the Word (YHVH), and the Word was with God (Elohim), and the Word (YHVH) was God (El). The same (YHVH) was in the beginning with God (Elohim). All things were made by him (YHVH); and without him was not any thing made that was made. In him was life; and the life was the light of men. And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehendeth it not.” John 1:1-5. “And the Word (YHVH) was made flesh, and dwelt among us (as Jesus), (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father (Elohim),) full of grace and truth.”

     So the LORD God, YHVH, Jehovah, that is, Jesus Christ, said to God the Father (Elohim) in the garden, “Behold the man is become as one of Us, knowing good and evil.” But why did Jehovah then forbid the fruit of the tree of life from Adam and Eve, and cast them out of the garden? At this point we come full circle to the Book of Mormon.

     In 1 Nephi 11:7 we read, “And behold this thing shall be given unto thee for a sign, that after thou hast beheld the tree which bore the fruit thy father tasted (the fruit of the tree of life), thou shalt also behold a man descending out of heaven, and him shall ye witness; and after ye have witnessed him ye shall bear record that it is the Son of God.”

    11:8 And it came to pass that the spirit said unto me: Look! and I looked and beheld a tree; and it was like unto the tree which my father had seen; and the beauty thereof was far beyond, yea, exceeding of all beauty; and the whiteness thereof did exceed the whiteness of the driven snow

    11:9 And it came to pass after I had seen the tree, I said unto the Spirit: I behold thou hast shown unto me the tree which is precious above all.

    11:10 And he said unto me: “what desirest thou?’

    11:11 And I said unto him: To know the interpretation thereof–for I spake unto him as a man speaketh; for I beheld that he was in the form of a man; yet nevertheless, I knew that it was the Spirit of the Lord; and he spake unto me as a man speaketh with another.

    11:16 And he said unto me: Knowest thou the condescension of God?

    11:21 And the Angel said unto me: Behold the Lamb of God, yea, even the Son of the Eternal Father! Knowest thou the meaning of the tree which thy father saw?

    11:22 And I answered unto him, saying: Yea, it is the love of God(!), which sheddeth itself abroad in the hearts of the children of Men, wherefore it is the most desireable above all things.

    11:25 And it came to pass that I beheld that the rod of iron, which my father had seen, was the word of God (YHVH!), which led to the fountain of living waters, or to the tree of life; which waters are a representation of the love of God; and I also beheld that the tree of life was a representation of the love of God.

    11:26 And the angel said unto me again: Look and behold the condescension of God!

     And it was as if the angel had spoken directly to me: Look and behold! The Iron Rod is the Word of God, YHVH, the breath of life in the world! The Tree of Life and the Fountain of Living Waters are the wellspring of God’s love for all of us, his children! I was struck dumb and smitten by the most powerful, joyful, compassionate blow of truth.

     No trickster had written this to get gain on his fellow man! This was the true Word of God! The mental images I had of Joseph Smith staring at stones in a hat and reciting the Book of Mormon to the people who recorded it now took on a whole different light. No man could fabricate such a thorough and truthful doctrine off the top of his head as some kind of party trick to try to make a buck on some upstate New York farmers. This MUST be a revelation, a truly inspired work sent by the divine hand of God himself.

    I was shocked, as if I had been struck by lightning. As if God had reached down himself and touched me and said “this is the truth.” I knew then that the Book of Mormon was true, and that I truly had found the restored Church of Jesus Christ upon this Earth. I write this testimony in his holy name, even the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.